a new start a new beginning. a lot to write today.

woo~i saw lacus clyme within someone's image, the feeling's so close.wait! am i something wrong? i dunno but something is sure prompting me. but i dunno what is it! something is stirred up within me. but i dunno. a lot of things going around, what should do? i dunno what to do except not to go into relationship right now, even though i felt so much that i wanted. feel again, why so many feelings recently..?? lols.


nursing, a passion, cannot compare such a good job with my network marketing work. is that God's thing for me?? that network marketing job is something that i do not want to go into. certainly in human's way, man wanted to change it and improve the whole network thing and will always find that, even they try their best to put in teamwork and coordination, they will still lack of something. that job does provide me to meet more people, but the approach to people is wrong, selling products. i agreed with my real daddy, which he says, it's all service but there's something lack inside, and all the christians will know what is it.

what is the truth in the world?no trust, no forever, and only strongest will survive. our world is like urban jungle,somehow the job mostly clashes with my ministries, something i dun like. and what really makes me so obsessed to it, is the money. and does nursing lack of what is inside?yes, nursing have that. =)my main purpose in this world, i will never forgets, it's all about His people, His salvation and all other stuffs, so much more.


Over the few weeks my heart is kinda stoned. i began to realise it. what did i done that causes me that? what is the truth behind it? and it's about that network marketng job.my heart tells me that, hey go into this job and you can get more contacts with more people, but now God tells me, no that's not the way, the way i want you to go is to build your characters and have good relationship with others, telling others that you care for them, and find them not because of any other things.


why do man has to think so much, he can just act according to his instinct and just be a bit more rational can le ma, why so much things?my heart tells me, here, know people still can get money, see, still got car leh, if really want to save people, you can starts from there and some more time is flexible and your salaries can do not need to worry le. but my God tells me, the meaning of saving souls is not getting any rewards from man, but from God, seek his holy and righteousness first and everything will be given to you by faith. and if the salaries is by leverage, when at a time everyone starts not to work, that will means you have no more money and are you that thick skinned to leech others' money? others have put in their best effort leh.in the end i found myself adjusting to world's time, not His time. something wrong is in. and i must pull myself out before going too deep.

thanks to Chris Tan.
the passion of Christ was played at that time to allow me to seek the truth. Within His eyes, i saw the truth. what the world is really lacking?it's all about love. and we all have to start with love, for God is Love.


~Leaders do special things that people do not understand.~