seeking His kingdom and righteousiness and everything will be given to you by faith.

i think i am at the right path, but i dunno whether i am right or not, self doubt and amazingly, i managed to quit my job without having a second thought, even though my manager's manager keep persuading me, and trying to change my thought, using logics.
How to speak out my mind by using... i shall call it, "the Christ theory".
it's a special theory, so special that only christians (or people who have the same frequency as mine) can understand. somemore my boss's boss is someone ,who is a non-christian, can say things from white to black, and turns black into white. amazing? i dun think i want to learn that, i just want to learn how to submit, otherwise, i can distort all others thinking. i just want simple obedience. it's very simple, yet it's very hard to follow. but there's one thing he's correct, i hoped i won't fall away from my ministry, which i most probably will because i know i am still a human, not because i doubt my vision but myself.

from there, God gives me a vision of one sin, greed, and i have already fallen into it, but praise God! it's not too deep yet. because i knew that i have fallen, that's why there's a need to pull myself out, otherwise when i pushed my position closer and closer to the car incentive, i know i cannot take myself out. somehow personally, the system is quite doubting.

was it an act of Satan's design?
i checked my heart.
G12 seems to be like it but G12 is totally not.
It's also about leading but it leads to one of man's main sins, greed.
It confuses people easily.
People can fall away from church when they concentrate on this job.
Love is not found in it. it has only concern, one main "ingredient" to make Love *sounds so wrong lol* , but it's not Love. concern still require other "ingredients" to complete the whole process.
Aim is money not love.
no sense of fulfilment.

and of course there's lot more of it. i am just wondering is it an act of satan to change everything.

"the Christ theory".
all about God.
something that intelligent people cant really understand well.(because intelligent people try to find all reason to submit, but it's impossible!)
it requires your faith and simple obedience.
no doubts, just follow, submit.
dun worry if you failed in following Christ if you lose your way in Christ because of your leader as he/she will be accountable to it.
lastly, no fear in doing everything.
even the world falls, just hold on the world if God asked you to do so.

i realised something, i tends to use logic to understand what God is trying to, but there's no logic. it's all by faith and miracles. a retard may not understand what people in the world doing, but as long as he follows the Lord i guarantee plus chop that nothing will happened to that retard, who has become a wise guy, when he follows God. =). just His Ten Commandments can leads you wisely lo. you say la, if you finish the whole bible, you are super smart.. in Christ. hees =D

God do things illogically when man do things to have logic support it. God uses miracles to do things, while man requires reasons.

trying to figure out what He plans for you to do next?
just ask your cell leader can liao. =)
but must submit hor!
and remember last thing,
give thanks to God in all circumstances!

my dear bed! here i come! =D

~Leaders do special things that people cannot understand.~