Friday, February 02, 2007,
seem like i am going to have a long blog this time.
*woot* (O_O)
thank God that i am back into His Kingdom, again.
just after the encounter camp, a lot of things came up and i was almost to the edge of knocking out.
Praise and thank God that i am still here, mentally stable and prepared for the future.
lots of thoughts came to me before encounter and after encounter.
before encounter, i was preparing my heart to encounter God, and i did.
a lot of things came through my mind, especially one image.
the image was like a set of clouds with light shining out of it. and i was not praying there, but a lady, wearing white sleeveless dress with long hair. and certainly i am not talking about ghost stories. =.= *zzz*
she was kneeling on a platform like those in piers, and on her left is the ocean. the whole of sky is covered with clouds. she is holding both of her hands, praying hard. i dunno what is she praying about.
is it a desire from me or a vision from God?
i hope and believe by faith that it's a vision from God.
but i do know something. she is sure a woman of God. =)
after that image came, a lot of things happened. my heart has found peace within, especially when my great burden is being released (or carried by Jesus, Amen (= ), and my strongest sin is released its bondage from me, a lot of healing went through. though my tears were little, they are heavy to me.
from there i also get know of my brothers better, especially Guo Wei, Jun Yong, Shawn Tan, Keelin, papa Chris and myself.
looking at papa Chris, he has struggles in his life, struggles that is greater than us and i am sure that none can understand a lot much, except Gabriel, Guo Wei and Ah gong, Chris Tan.
papa Chris is our guide and certainly we have benefitted a lot. encounter eat pizza, you have that experience? no? but we have! =D
a lot of times, he try to share with us and certainly he blessed us a lot, so much that we cant even handle.
you can just see.
every leader has the blessings from God. as each generation passed down, the blessings of the previous generation is being passed down too, and that will means, the blessings we have now is overwhelming lots! and our cups cannot hold so much, so it overflows!
but it's good to ask for more, just like pepsi =D
days doesnt just end at encounter camp.
it is only just the beginning.
a new thirst for Him, the seek of His wisdom is being unlocked dunring one of the leaders' meeting. the strong hunger, makes my heart once again, soft and again, His words come to me.
"Son, are you too busy with your stuffs, and always be so fast in everything that you took me out of your wonderful life?"
and yup, i did and i repented.
now trying to change. =)
and that day when some of us going home, everyone sense a new anointing and strength within us, and a smile in our face. =)
see? =D
and now comes problems surfaced within my friends,especially one couple.
what is a relationship?
a question flashed through my mind.
why people who has such good mate, want to give up? was that because are they too free to think a lot, and their thinkings went haywire?
i doubt anyone can find it, until they see God is over their lives. and Praise God! he put someone in my life and i saw that. through them, i also saw that it's really man's will to whether they want to do it or not. well maybe sam and i didnt do a lot of things, we do hear her out and from her teary eyes, there's still love from her to him. she spoke about his good from his bad, and i know that. no one will speak of that unless it's out of love.
she did appreciate what he has done to her in the past.
but has he? i dunno. =)
and now they are back again. seeing them together is something that really makes me glad, and may my God in Heaven built a covenant upon them by Grace.
life is once simple. but why man make it complicated?
went back to school, with lots of works coming up.
projects, assignments plus house modem break down makes my life worse, but i still give thanks to God of His Grace. and a sentence came to me," give thanks to God in all circumstances."
going to people's house to use their com, or borrow laptop from my elder cousin and same school as me, rushing here and there, without His Grace i wont be able to finish my work, especially my Nursing Research de.
1500 words, with only 1 research reference in my studies. how to write? lol. supposed to hand up on thursday, but it was postponed to friday.
in the end i am still able to finish and of course, missed out a lot of parts.
this week is sanctification week and i encountered God again.
it brings me back to the church that Chris Tan and Ps Serene was married. the cross in the ceremony room flashed through my mind. that cross is special, because that was the time when the boys were sitting there, seeing them preparing for the day of marriage ceremony. and i saw the brotherhood spirit within us. i will never forget that day because, that day Daryl was acting like a pastor preachs, or talking for service lol. after he does, i was being asked too. well of course at that time we still cant speak like pastor, but at least now can a bit ba. hees. =)
personally, a strong hatred was against them when they left, but confessed that Lord i have sinned against you and my brothers, and i repented. =)
God, please forgive me. =)
my best best best classmates-cum-buddies-cum-friends-cum-sisters!
ze jun and me!
tsz yan and me!
my classmates, i can say i have the best classmates. they are always there for all of us. we loved each other like sisters and brother. why only brother, not brothers? because within 4 gals in this group, i am the only guy lol, who is always mentally abnormal. they brought me laughter, thinking and taught me what is team building.
i am an independent man, so i dunno what is family building. this is something important i missed in my life. they taught me a lot, concern about each other, sharing woes and troubles.
they are good and simple people.
thank God for them. =)
everyday, i took my dad's motor to school. thank God for His Grace upon us. each day, i was thinking what happened if my dad and me got an accident?
hope there will be the salvation of Christ is upon him. He has changed a lot within these few years. from a busy father to a loving father, giving up a lot of things for family.
thank God for that, and i know He is doing something within my family. =)
my intercession prayers is working, thank God. =) and that doesnt stop there. i will still continue till salvation comes. =)
the Spirit of Excellence, was also brought up to me.
i know i must do something about it.
thank God for these everything.
Glory to you, Jesus. =)
++ True Love comes with a price of Death. ++
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