it was a long day.
yet it is still great. i wanna give thanks!
typing all these in a dark room while my father is sleeping.. lol

i want to give thanks that i am still having kinda good health even though i slept only 4 hrs and took my exams. praise God that i am still able to survive the whole exam lol, even though it almost make my brain go "steamed" to a certain extent that it almost overuse, going to blackout soon.

out of those, i am very grateful that throughout the exam, the sense of peace that provided by Him was there, strongly. even i woke up late for exam, around 8am and the exam was 9am, the peace was reassuring me all day long, and yup, i reached the examination hall before the door closes for reading time for the paper. but guess what?
i didnt go, and i heard one of the teachers in charge there said, "act cool" lol.

maybe i am, but does it matters me? i doubt so. under that circumstances, i do believe i need to cool down and clear my mind for any thoughts and give space for that exam, and of cos... must put God first la. =)


yeah! finally cut off from examinations and studies... now going out to work lo. only left with some things to write on the booklet, skills that i have to look out and practise. but that's really fast man. too fast le, just a blink, it's coming to feb and chinese new year. i am amazed la.

but whatever that is, i want to raise all my sisters and brothers to be spiritually attached to each other. thanks to God, He gives me a pair of eyes to observe and a ways-0f-man-thinking mind to think, i began to understand people's thoughts. it all happens when you believe that God created everything for good.

why must pessimistic comes in front of optimistic?
i believe when everything is started from good, we can see bad things also.


oh ya, have you ever thought that...
"could this guy/lady is fated or was it God sent to me?"

but could you ever thought that even though "i am always thinking about this, how come this doesnt happens to me?"
from an angle it can be a desperate call that others have, you also want, becaue that happens to me sometimes, when i am too free lol.
and that will be a good reason why i should keep myself busy.

papa Chris told me this once,
"if you keep thinking about it, it will most probably not going to happen,"
i believe it is true indeed.
whether it is true or not, well, i believe i will be the perfect one, instead of looking for perfect one. some may think words are easier than action, but when you are in action, you become more resourceful and busier person.

i guess i dun want to be a...
good man,
bad man.
i just wanna be a son of God.
whatever comes, let it be.
even it is relationship, i will put it aside,
because i want to bless my partner. =)

thank you Lord for Your Mercy daily on me. =)


~True Love comes with a price of Death.~