Got this from Wendy, time to check myself and maybe for you too. =)
Check yourself, are you ready for a relationship...?
7 things you want to see in your better half.
1)Physically-How you want him/her to look like? Average looking? Charming? Dashing? etc
2)Spiritually-Strong foundation with God? Leader? Love God? Love his people? etc
3)Financially-Prudent? SPendthrift? Giving character? etc
4)Social-Have friends who love him/her. etc
5)Intellectual-Education level? With widom? With knowledge?
6)Family-Family background? Love parents? Are you able to love the parents? Will you be able to get along? etc
7)Emotionally-Active->Fierce, violent, gets angry easily, says hateful words. etcORPassive->Depression easily, negative thoughts, pessimistic. Etc
What do you actually see in the person that you think that you want to go into a relationship?
Does he/her fit in all the 7 critiria that u had listed?

Me?I try to list myself de.
1) Average looking.
2) A woman who always seeks Lord and have a teachable and soft heart, a compassionate heart for the Lost.
3) Financially? Well, Someone who knows she is sufficient to have, bless others and able to help with me in family and always give the best for her families.
4) Friends? certainly, who will goes with her all the way.
5) Biblical knowlegde, education not really important. Through bible, God has already taught her. why? Because God has taught her to learn the language when she is reading the bible.
6) Family, certainly is important than myself sometimes and my work. I will give my work up for my family. She must love the family also.
7) Emotionally Active, able to smile and laugh and able to express her feelings and emotions.

Why am i so concerned about families?
It's a covenant that God built with me. If my better half built with me, it's given by God.
Even friends also, something not by might or by strength but a covenant that God has given to me, for my friends and me to build with them, under the covering of God.

So I thank God for each friend I have, especially those who I know recently =)
Praise God! =)

Living on His Word alone is already something I have within my riches.
Certainly I am rich.
=Life, a live demonstration.=

Recently dunno why a lot of my friends feeling down lately...
Felicia, and some of them that i knew not long, Vivien.

Thought is just a handful, they are real great and helping frens to me.
As much as i wanted to help my frens in helping them to do something or even lessen down their workload and even maybe emotional load, however still find it quite helpless, and all i can do is pray.

Pray does work. =)

=Life, a live demonstration. =

I thank God for the brothers around, they are always there.
Well it's time for me to serve them back.

What is fear?
Do you have it?

Why do we fear?

Often... what do we fear for?
As Christians, we fear that people will persecute us when we shared gospel, there's a tendency that it will happened, but not now. because we are not Jews, there are hardly Pharisees, got only police. As long as you are respecting the laws, no one can do anything to you. That fear is started from us, but sometimes think about that, we proclaim Jesus in our lives, God is with us, Emmanuel, there's actually no need or nothing to fear people to persecute us.

Being conservative?
Just compare with something in the reality.
Get your mind correct please.

If sex can be so open, and it's not that personal anymore, where sometimes people can share with others openly, we are not showing something that is very private, but why cant just we share with others about Christ?

Wah living World! Fast paced society!
So what? big deal!
Facing the reality? oh yeah..

Reality, something we are living in and every moment now. Just for this moment each of us is protected by laws. So in some ways, people cant do harm to us physically, because laws has protected us from insults and beatings.
We are also protected spiritually and emotionally, for Lord protects us from all. =)

Do say that you have no money and pray to God. Be appreciative if someone treats you for something, because Lord has used that person to save money for your meal. Just thank God. =)

As much as those who are in occult groups, they can show even more concern to people around to pull them into the group. Why just cant Christians do the same?

Yesterday, was reading about a pasage. Maybe we do not have that much of courage to speak of great Love and great things about Jesus Christ to others. Well it's already very good, because God has pushed your faith in Him to a higher level. Praise God.

So what is the truth to prove from this?
Man inside has fears.
Man got pride, I do also.
People see you later scare paisei.. whahaha!
Challenge yourself, but at the same time, respect people and authority, because they have been placed there to teach you, to guide you, not for you to hate them not for you to dislike them =)

I thank God for all these. =)

=Life, a live demonstration. =

Haha this time my turn le.

Haiz, my com is gonna be brain washed and replaced. A change of life.

Previously is Wendy's pictures were gone, and now is my turn, but I am going to save them up cos I got the time! haha! =P

Fasting, certainly it's not a good feeling but more than that, it's somethow guards my heart and wakes me up from my pleasure from my life. Glory to God!

Today school ended early and started late. Kinda shiok but I am going out later to collect some stuffs from Jonathan and bring a prayer to him, haha!

Guard over my eyes, O Lord.
I thank God for today. =)

Dreamygurl, jia you wor! =)
Wendy, jia you in studies wor! =D

=Life, a live demonstration. =

And so, what's her part of the story?
I will never know, because I dunno how she feels (maybe bad?).
And there comes my judgement.
I wanna judge her whehter is it this way correct or not, but actually, yup, I didn't manage to listen to her part of story. =)

So, I am wrong too.
We can ever know what people are thinking, because we are not them, and so, why bother so much? =D
Let it be.

Man's thinking can be complex but,
Life is simple after all, you see.


=Dun not let your assumption becomes others' point of view. =

today's Death Note was great. It describes about how wise a person can be, by all means to destroy one. It just came to the right time as I need corrections in my life. Within the past few days, I was actually helping my friend in some relationship problems, of cos, I will try to help, but at the same time, I made a very serious mistake, which is passing judgement on others' character.God showed me that I was the same in the past, whether is it po po ma ma or tuo li dai shui, I made the same mistake that guy made, and yup, it certainly showed me how i felt and how bad i was. I thank God for that, because He showed me that I should not judge upon others' character.I also thank God that at that time, she made a wise decision, that is to cut off everything and we becomes friends, close friends.Yet it's very hard to become close friends, because you will still see each other everyday, every time in service, and I know I let her down, I will try to avoid her, yet at the same time, I like (or maybe love) her a lot. However, I know true love is certainly not this way.

Let her go to let her grow.
Let her go because of my pride.

Something affirms me even more. It's God.
Why?I
love this passage a lot.
1 Corinthian 13: 4-8.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails.


Love hold everything, never blames, never been selfish. I thank God to allow me to understand what I really got in the end, that's true love. Holding someone you can never be together and letting her go at the same time is a true blessing, whether is it to myself or to her. =)
When she break through the barrier and the "wounds", I was happy, and when she found God, I delights for her, because right before me, she needed God real lots to develop in her character and grow deep into the church. She had backslided once, certainly not again because of anything. And I know God can mend the broken lines between her and me, and now, we are good friends, real good friends. =)

Praise God for that. =)

What's the true love?I believe there's no true love, and by now, I doesnt regard my part as true love, because I have finally found what true love actually is.
It was actually the point of time when Jesus was being crucified, He can chooe to walk away but He wanted to suffer and calling forgivess upon us.
Why?
Because of Love. Nothing of mine can compared to His Glory, yet He still loves us sooo much.
I felt so honoured. =)

=Thank you my FAther for the Cross=

Today though one of my uncles in my cubciles, organs seems to fail slowly. I was asking myself was that something I wanted?
Certainly not. Why, I believe the prayers that they prayed on him each and everyday did work.
We surely can raise people from dead. Yet, the whole idea of resurrection is believe. Believe that our Father in Heaven can work within the dead, but why people just dun believe. Why was the healing from our Father didnt able to heal him?

I saw my uncle struggling each and everyday, just for breath, and was really kinda disheartened and disappointed. Yes, they did prayed, but they are disheartened by the facts of science. Each and everyday, I just felt like praying for him, his tears was falling everytime when his relatives came to see him. I may not be able to see it, but I knew his heart can feel it. Soaked and dried, soaked and dried Yet to this very day, I still believe he will be make it through, because Christ has set him free.
I believe in God, not science, only Jesus can heal on the spot, but others cant.

And what's the truth?
Jesus, our Father is the truth, and I know He will make a healing on him.
Whether he has been set free or not, I just hope that he will believe Christ is Lord.
I believe if he has passed away, sure there's a lesson for us to learn. I thank God for him.
I need to repent whether the prayers did work or not, because it's not for me to judge.
And I thank God that I have a soft heart, and the heart for the others.
Certainly, I will make myself a nurse, not like the others. =)
Because the truth is, Death has been overcomed by the Cross.

I thank God that I know one of the NYP Year 3 nurses well. Her name is Vivien. I thank God for her. Our friendship are like, started a week ago, 3 hrs everytime, except today, I thank God that I understand her to the very minimum. I guess I have taken granted to my friends, and I repent on that.

Allow me to explan why is it 3 hours. The morning shift is 0700 to 1500, and afternoon shift will be 1230 to 2030, and there's actually a time for both to meet, that is 1230 to 1500 for morning to cover afternoon nurses to take report. So actually each and everyday, I managed to meet her only like 3 hours? Except today, because today is slightly more, 8 hrs same shift but different rooms. I thank God to train my heart, allowing me to know that, I am a man, someone who lacks Love, especially from God. =)

What she has taught me? Her lessons in her life renewed my life and my values that I have learnt, especially her relationship. The way she has been through and yup, cetainly is something for me to learn. May not be much, but it's valuable, because it takes time to experience these stuffs.

She allowed me to view on her side of story, something i missed out.
We often missed out that actually there's pain for both in relationship, because relationship consist both persons. Yet normally, We only concentrate on ourselves, especially Christians, keep on crying and weeping that we need healings.

Yes I do, but did I bless the one I hurt?
No.

I thank God for showing me, how selfish I am.
My Lord...
Glory to God
Glory to God!

=To the world you may be one person, to that one person you maybe the world. =

These are some rules:

Each players of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get taggerd need to write in a blog of their own weird things as well as state the rules clearly. At the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After doing that, leave a comment, leeting them know that you tagged them and to read your blog.

1) I like to look at handsome guys.
2) I like older and mature gals...? haha!
3) I like to be in my own world.
4) I like to sniff my pillows =D
5) I like all fanciful ideas and weird ideas.
6) I like to laugh out of a sudden, wahaha!

ehh, guess that's all, haha!

Now, I tagged:
1) Gabrielle
2) Chrislyn
3) Wendy
4) Michiko!
5) Bii
6) Esther.

Woo all gals!

Easter Sunday!
Anyone miss put Church service for last sunday, Christians? haha! =D

Thank God that I went with Gabriel to CHC this morning, certainly it's a great service there. We met xiao xian's grandparents, but sad enough didnt take pictures. It's a rewarding day for me this easter sunday because it allows me to understand even more about Christ and my church.

For those who went to CHC will certainly like to go again, because the people there are very friendly and welcoming. Felt like some sort of undercover going into others' house of God. Haha. The way that our church works is totally different from CHC, too much different.

Well today got lost fo share! Haha! recently it seems like i have no mates to help out in my cubicle, how come?

I wonder was it God helping me?
Why?

Because I can exposed to more things and yup, training me to be a better nurse. Right now, I am just handling the stuffs that Assistant nurses do, erm, so I am a year 1 nurse, but I thank God.
This is the time where I can polish my skills to perfect, and I hope I wont be like the nurses now,
Documentation, Documentation, Documentation! There are procedures, but very minimum, because it's usually done assistant nurses. How I wish I was an assistant nurse and the pay will be the same as staff nurse, haha! That will be impossible to others, but it will be possible with God. =D

Today as I was doing my stuffs in my cubcile, I was thinking, is it God testing me and making me into someone who is even stronger in will, endurance and speed for my future?

and I sincerely believe it..yes, it is.

What are you doing now? Do you have a moment in your life to rest and to reflect?
If not, just pause now. I believe within your memories, what if these are things that are not coincidence and happened to be God's will? =)

surely it touches you, because through those wrong actions I believe you have learnt from it. =)

My mates in this world... jia you wor! =)

- Pause and think.. =) -

Today, I just lost an grandfather in my ward, sad to say, he went to hospice. Even in my mindset, which it is warned, hospice is the place for people awaiting death. To those who are working in hospice treat it as a second place before people went to hand out their "identification card" to whom may concern.

Was it a relief to hear that they are going to heaven? I dunno, but I am sure of something, that he sure has left a sweet memory in my heart. Though it's a tiring day, I still must share what chocolate he gave me! =D

It's Toblerone, and certainly, His presence has showed me a lot of things and of course, my presence has really blessed the grandfather. I believe God is with me, and I thank God for that, because standing beside is very threatening to my life, He can just see anything from me in my mind, my heart that is not pure and "pang", I am dead, no more Jimmy in this world. haha!

Been tired and not really well, suffering headaches, and blah blah blah, living just on Him plainly, like everyday having bread, is really a blessing in my life. Why dont we allow to have Him in every part of our lives? or is there any fear for you to give your life, and every moment you breathed for Him? =)

Thank God this and everyday.

=are you dependent on Him? =