A question came to me. Why do we need to completely surrendered ourselves to God just to be able to humble ourselves to God? If we said God is good, and we know He is all good, and He has saved us, but why? Is it because out of guilt and things that God has done to us?

Or was it because we called Him, Father, without guilt, except with shame.

If He is real so good, why we do have to love Him after He showed us the things that we have done?

IF he is really Our Father, can there be anymore reasons need to love Him in gratitude?

This is my answer.I am the Son Of Christ, Son of God.
I dun want to love my Father in Heaven in gratitude, but I just want to love Him and respect Him.
Do not let this love be a gratitude, but let it be the start of never stop flowing of great Love from Christ. I thank God for whatever(not the drink) He has done for me in the past, showing me He is the best and most worthy Father I should love, not touching my heart just because of what good things He done for me in my life, but allow me to see what is best thing He has chosen for me in my life, allowing me to see and understand, who is my Father, my God and my All.

I dunno whether is this humble or not, but I stand in awe of Him.

Everyone comes to a certain point in Christ will find a stagnant point, which is the most easiest to fall away from Christ's Word and Praise God if you are reaching that stagnant point, because you have certainly reached a certain amount of desiring more for Christ. At the same point, you may not know what to do.

The best thing is talk to God and talk to our spiritual daddies!=D
I am so fortunate to love such so much great daddies... hees! =)

Tithing and money, sensitive issue.
I always struggles with tithing.
However, at the end of the day, I will still try my best to give some, wanting to train it into habit. Today was planning to tithe $40, because my pay came in $380, but with no change. So, I asked James, and interestingly, I like James's reply, "then tithe $50 lo.

"Ta da! Struggles come in.

You know ar, $50 leh, I can do lots of things. Bless my sister with lots of food, buying a pair of shoes because my shoes spoilt liao, and used it to return $$ to Leonard.
However whether is it 16 or 50 dollars, all should give to God. The verse about cheerful giver came in, Praise God. God tells me, " I know it, son.Give it as a cheerful giver. I immediately asked for forgiveness and repented, "give it as you please, but always try to give as much as you are able to, but as you give more, it's by faith." =)

So next time, $50 and $16, which one will you give, even though you are poor?What happens if i changes from this amount from $50 to $120, like, $120 or $16? =)

Today, just this encounter with God, changes my whole thought about God, from someone who is strict and disciplines me into God who is someone always so loving, gentle and forgiving. =)He rebukes, He forgives, He is kind but strict. =)
A breakthrough today! PRaise God..! Thank God for knowing Him, more and more.
Never take Him for granted, but always be able to go to Him.

Most of us as much as we reached a certain level in our spiritual life, we doesnt seems to do much about it, so we slowly slack and backslide. What can we do? It's not we doesnt want to do anything but what can we do?

what are the areas in your life you want to improve in this world, and in this?
I want to improve in my ministry. Each one in my family, I want to hold them together, and making them happy, not really too united, but never always care and concern for their brothers.

That's the maximum that i can do for the family.
For ministry? Certainly I have great hopes, and everyday I am working towards it. =)
Went for altar call yesterday, Ee Jay prayed for me, haha, praise God. Whatever that he says it's true. It depends on man's heart desire to serve God, rather than depends on plans that we, Man, that provides. Well as long as we pray, God will provide. =)

1 and 1/3years have passed. When is my 3 years ending soon?

Sometimes, when we are close to someone, especially our family members, close friends, and loved ones, how often did we not loosen our hands on them and keep on grabbing on them, so hard that they want to break free from us.

Family and friends, are we grabbing too tight on them?

I dun want to be a control freak!

And so, who do you consider the closest to you?
Friends or family?

Personally, my families, both spiritual and biological.
Friends are great people you know from streets, hobbies, and some common interests and more.
However, how often they turn their backs to you, or escaping from you when you need help?
I thank God that I really have a handful of great friends. However, often we do lack of topics to talk about, and personally, I dun like to gossip.
Gossips creates a disturbing characteristic and label onto someone, who may have the bad habit or bad personality or maybe some else, i dunno. A distorting image, that is not supposed to be, and should not be, because there might be other contributing factors tha causes that situation or characteristic.

My families, I only have them for this lifetime. No more. But friends of similiar kind can have a lot.
That doesnt mean I treat my friends lightly, but priority wise, certainly not as much as my families. I do love my friends, because they given to me by od. However, my families is the oone I am destinied to be with in my life. No escape.
Will you just treasure them for once in this lifetime? =)
You got only this, one and only chance to do it to them.

No matter what they do, will you forgive and forget?
Will you make them smile the most beautiful smile ever?
And lastly,
have you ever forget what they have done for you and done with you?

True, I often have regrets why I didnt treat my parents better, but well, I am trying my best to compensate, even though i know I cant. I enjoy the result of pleasing them, making them happy especially my parents and my grandparents. =)
Scold them, banging door against them, ignoring them, calling them names, and even more than that.

I repent that I didnt do much to make them happy.
And no point feeling guilty, do not say cherish them for now, but do it.
Working for almost half of their lifetime, I think the next thing is the understanding of the child.
I thank God that somehow I have that, and I thank God for giving me a soft heart to appreciate them.

AS much as people wanted to crush us from this real world, money is certainly holds us back from everything.

Be practical, yes we are.
Because this world requires money to do stuffs.
We are blessed more than what we have.
The issue of money is very sensitive to most of us.
However we work so often and commit into our work so much, we forget we are earning money. I thank God for the people i know, the experience and the friendship that I made with people, whether is it during work or during attachment or even my studies.

They worth more than money.
I do have certainly amount of limited cash, but the truth is, as long as I ask, I will be blessed from God. Riches of what God has given in already in this world, we just have to step out of our comfort zone, and asked people who we dont know, and step out of faith, we are being provided. Why? Cos God has softened their hearts when we asked.

I thank God for yesterday that I reflect my actions and thoughts when I passed by a cripple and didnt helped. I should have put in some money into his tray. Yes, I am not rich, and I need my parents to support but do we ever know that, they need more than us? Who does ever concerned that following Christ has asked us to do?
"Feed my lambs"
"Feed my sheeps"

Whenever we spent money, can we be that bit of realistic? to help others and save? As much as looks is concerned, just look upon to God. He has said that we are beautiful, but neither we can be too proud.

To a certain extent, are we giving our best and commiting the best for the family? =)Do we really receive so much blessings that we forget to bless the others? I repent because, yes I do.
I thank God for Daddy Chris, otherwise, I will not have grown so strong in Christ.Financial needs, yes I do have resistance but always, Dad has always made a way out for me, breaking through financial barriers to overcome them that prevents me from growing into Christ. =)I thank God for such a great Spiritual father, and my Heavenly Father.I thank God I have a soft heart.I thank God that He always provides. =)

I also thank God for my biological Dad, he has put in so much into family and in the end, both Dads shows me and tells me that yes, indeed Family is important. Both of them tries their best to support me in all things. All i need to do is just that step out and up to claim the blessings.
It's all in God's planning. If it isnt God's blessing and planning, I wont have grown so much. =)

Praise God.

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