Lalala, yesterday we went for food, expensive and nice, but not filling food. The soup is nice, well, like what people has always said, good food can never satisfy, haha. =)



Haha, missed that time for my family and beancurd.. =( But sure have the chance next time. =)

Everyone is living in this world with a mask. Living with mask. I like that.

Those who watch bleach knows the "Holloliazation". Masks, we do have. I have also and got damn lot, hah.
There's something is more important, are we accountable to God and to the very minimum, our spiritual parents? Are we living in transparent to God?

What is the main purpose of mask?
Mask, is a cover up for others. People in the world used it for the sake of covering themselves. But whether is it a mask or not, characteristic of Christ is ever simple. Christ only demand us to do something.

Matthew 18:3
3And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.

Child like - innocent, always seeking and curious to all things = a teachable heart, a child in His Eyes, obedient to Father in heaven. Simple. Living happy like there's no tomorrow, cry already then forget. Forgive and forget. But why cant we do it?

The truth that we can't do it because we cant fuse the two worlds together onto one.
The two worlds I mean is people so called Spiritual world and real world. As much as we believe that Christ has been always with us in all circumstances, not only in church or cell groups, why just we cant believe and fuse the thinkings and the practices of the two world together, since all the stories in bible is also happening in this globe shaped of soil?
The challenge is ourselves eventually. We cant even live our lives to share with others. Maybe parents will say, why must I share my life with my son? Or why do we have to talk to them, not they come and find us?
As much as we proclaim us as christians, aren't we living our lives transparent to people who is around us? Why are we not doing things we should have done that Christ has called us?

I am ashamed to say this, but there is a need to repent. =)
I need to repent that I have took 2 normal salt water (10mls) from my ward. It was greed. That is one of my masks. I still have a lot of masks such as anger, depressed and lots. But the problem is, can you take down the mask and express your emotions to people who you do not know?

Do you trust God? When you approach one with God's Love, care and concern, maybe that person is rough and bad, but do you believe your approach is the right time for that guy who needs.. maybe your prayers and someone to talk?
The mask is created by our imagination. Why do I said so?
Cos did you see that I said previously, maybe that person is rough and bad?
From this, you can see that I created the image of that person, which the person may turn out to be a good guy, or someone with sissy voice? Oh well, hard to imagine but at the end of the day, you will never know.=)

I thank God today, I live by Him, because For the past 3 days, I didnt sleep much, maybe 12 hours in total of the 3 days? Hah.
I said to God yesterday, hey Lord, should I do devotions or not? Yeah, I should do, but not reflections. =) But praise God, I tapped onto Him, to do things that is impossible.

Okay, back to tomorrow.

Thank God for yesterday meetng with Terence. While he is sending me home, he talks about last week sermons - dreams. Let us recap.
Dad's dream is to sing to the multitudes.
My brothers, eh, ashamed to say, I also do not know.
My dream is to be a good nurse.

Like what I said, why most of nurses become teachers, to teach a better quality of nurses as compared to now. But I desire to be something different from what we have hospital bow. A total different type of nurse. A nurse who provide holistic care, out of all gossiping, I want to share my Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ's Love.

My patients or those patients I came across and deal with, I thank God that they give me a positive respone, no anger.=) Win their hearts, it's not too tough, but it requires time. =)
A nurse, totally from others, because i just make my life simple. When we see things, maybe the road is curvy but God will show the way when you depend on Him.


And why do you have to think so much, when you have God beside you, to tell you and expalin to you everything in your life? =)

Feeling very sad and very bad. Haiz, caused one of my brothers to be so disappointed.
Today should be happy one, because today is the last day of my attachment and next week is a week with lots of chalets. At least I am attending 3 chalets. Haiz.

But after all attachment is still good. Get to know a lot of friends, and especially gals. Haha.. do i sound like those flirt? But I am not, but no one will believe... Oh well, hah. =/

A tribute to my friends who is working in NUH! Ward 53! =D



Hope you guys enjoy this. =)

I was brought back to the Cross today again, where I was being brought back that everyday is by His Grace and Love, never taken them for gratned, and pray and bless His People.

I lost a patient today, a potential Christian. He speaks of the things he should not have done. Regrets? I believe there is, in his mind, especially come to the point where he go and jump down from hospital, just because of his short tempered anger against doctors and nurses.

He has bad and short temper. Someone who completed 4 years and 9 months in NS. That tells his character somehow. I thank God that he has hardly show off any attitude to us, student nurses. I really felt blessed. Sad that I didnt managed to pray for him. I hope to see him soon! =)
Lets look things at the other way.

If nurses are doing their jobs well, knowing things they know and apply to everything that they have learnt, I believe there will be a revolution in nursing.

I thank God for this patient. Somehow, I believe that is the very reason why, many lecturers, from doctors and nurses, become teachers. Maybe some of them feel tired being a nurse, but there's something they believe they can contribute to the society, and something they can fill their hearts, the emptiness within.

As much as we can do well in academically, but who can guaranteed that the things we learnt is for our patients will stay in our mind forever? I believe this is a good reason for me to study. What is our duties, as a nurse?

A duty as a nurse, providing holistic care and helping our patients to regain to their health to their optimal independence. It will be better, if there includes love, whether is it family love or love for your partners, or even brotherly love. =)


I thank God for allowing me to meet a turning point in my nursing life. It may seems kinda early, but it's never been the wrong time to show it to me. =)

So what is your turning point? As a architecture or internal designer, designing a piece of art or a piece of land, which a peaceful heart to the person who is staying in?

An circuit board designer, with the most powerful and sophiscated mathematical calculation and designs an ultimate circuit board, or someone who is God in your life, and designs something, that uses simple logic but works powerfully?

It all comes to a point, which the world has created it without love and with great anger.

But can you make a difference, by removing all the anger and hatred in it, and with that bit of Love? =)

Will you make a difference in that point of the-same-old-thing theory that people has created, and make it a turning point with God's Hands, with just a bit more of Love? =)

Or your heart doesnt even never thought of it and after seeing it, running away? =)

I have nothing, but a heart for Lord to teach me, and in all circumstances, I will give thanks. =)

Dont worry, my patient is still alive. =)
Thank God for each and everyday. =)

~Life, a live demonstration~

Been through a tedious camp, I am finally able to rest at home.

Saturday, I knock out at 10 pm.
Woke up at 1 am. Then went back and wake up 6 am, then another wake up around 10am.
Learnt lots of things during camp.
Guess what I have done is more than a facilitator, or maybe I overdo it, or didnt even do anything.

these are something that one of my group members, Tammie, drew it.





This is me!




Cute right? haha!

WEll well, they are the best group that I have been with. And they are my first group that being facilitated by me. Dunno whether is it lucky for me or unlucky for them. Oh well. =)



Will miss you guys lots! =)

Today God talked to me, a lot.
He pointed out yesterday, being a facilitator among my team.
I was a sudden appointed leader, from a First-Aider to a Facilitator. I got two things on hands. First time, hah. Not a good reason, because I got someone, under me.
As much as I got two things to do, I felt the need to prioritise my things. Was saving people important or just give instructions to my people first?

What should I do, as a leader, what is my objectives?
Why am I so soft when I faced my people?
What should I teach my people?
How should I rise them up?

I was lost, because it's so sudden, but which leader does not accept the anointed from God suddenly? But there's always a prelude for the making of anointed leaders.
Maybe I cant imagine that great amount of people, so God taught me. =)

Moses, faced God, and was given a staff. He faced lots of tremedrous facts that God has proved that God, Himself, is real.
Noah, faced God, under lots of stress and disbelief. But still create that super big boat. Hah. =)
How much we wanted to learn, it comes from our hearts.
because in the end, Moses wanted to know God more and helped His people through his very own heart.
Yeah. =)

Okay, back to topic.
Was saving people important or just give instructions to my people first?
Both is important, yet, giving an instruction just a few seconds, and it guides people to the right way, while if you rushed to save lives first, you will somehow delay your team.

What should I do, as a leader, what is my objectives?
Why am I so soft when I faced my people?
What should I teach my people?
How should I rise them up?

These are certainly great points for me to teach and great to guide me along.
Leader, bond them together and make them know each other well, and I failed.
Different from a father lots.
Soft, I do not know how to be hard at times of moment. But certainly, tere's sometimes where regulations need to be enforced.
Teaching my people, was a not that tough and easy, because it takes a heart to teach the people. Christ didnt scold people, if people approached Him, neither if people didn't offended the rules of Christ.
Encouragement was one of the greatest factor that the people will give leaders respect, giving reasons makes them unable to reason. They are christians, that's the different from new believer, hah. =)
Rise them, comes from our attitude.
Too bad this time the camp is to make them into warriors. Really know how to fight.

Those who are leaders, are already armed with the armours and are fighting all the way.
Coming back from the war, coming back to the Glorious Hall, walking on the red carpet.
Saw Our King with white clothes and crown, Our Heavenly Father, walked down. I took down my silver helmet, and He spread out His Arms. I knelt down. He hold me up and hugged me.
Every meet up with God, was just a simple embrace from Our Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ. =)
A welcome back? Certainly!
What's the thought?
It's about coming back to God's Love and Embrace, remembering that He is the Father, and never forget what He does for us. =)
Guess that's why that is good, to have ministry once in a blue moon. =)

Like what Ps Nina said, we must seize the opportunities that God provide, knowing what God has called us. This time, I believe God has called us for a open cell. I believe this time God will use us almightily.
God brings me back to the time when I was doing "Amazing Grace", where God uses Regina as a leader. It may seems to be sudden and I wasnt that submissive at that time. Michell, James and me were doing lots of stuff. Then she sometimes free and sometimes not free. Making things hard to work out, but she has never failed to attend the meetings. No one tells her what to do. I was thinking which one does she wants to commit, she is in the church more longer than me, so she must be knowing some priority in life, especially the five priorities. She is rather committed into her schoolwork. stuffs and CCAs. However now she's at another church, what happens? Not for me to say. I believe if there's something that we need to commit into, the best will be start from church. =)

I believe there's a price to pay for all, like Ps Nina said. For that moment, it's time.

Somehow, sometimes, we dunno how to bless people because we are not blessed at first? Who should be the one who practises that for us to learn? I dunno, but certainly is not our friends, who we has not failed once to take them for granted.
But it has take a soft heart to learn too. Also God has blessed us too. What should we do to bless our Fathers back? Do back the things that He does, and the focus is blessing, giveing without any conditions.

As I walked through this journey with Him, I began to realise my obstacles, and the main one is relationship.
Now talk about relationship, hees. =)

I kept asking God for answer, and today, sermon notes were on Esther. That is what I used to find my perfect woman. She led me to know God more, and I thank God for her. relationship and love from gratitude. Certainly not love or relationship that I have desired, like paying her back everything. There was a shadow within, even if I managed to get back with her. As much as the 3 years promise comes and whacked my face, and hurt her even more, but I thank God that she's no longer worry for who-is-her-better-half anymore.

I think I am selfish, and it's time for me to let go. Once and for all.

I thank God that He has always granted me not to forget what she does and bring back the memories that what we do, maybe nothing and just do some simple calls for each other for just 10 minutes, enjoying the presence of each other. Always allow me to think of her, Thank God for that. I was wondering was that spiritual attack sometimes, because whenever I thought of her, there's either 13 or sort of familiar name will pop out of no way, hah.

I realised it was not easy for us to go into relationship, especially a Christian relationship. It may sounds scheming, but I have taken... let me see.
Dad to An Gong, Ah gong to Ps YC, Ps YC to Ps Eugene, Ps Eugene to Ps Khong, Ps Khong to Ps Caesar. so is grand-great-great-great-great dad, hah.

Take him as an example, he has met a woman, Ps Claudia, who he do not know. And beautifully, they created a Christian legacy by God's Grace, Praise God.
The woman did not become an obstacle but become an advantage for Him and for him. =D
I believe that is the criteria. God did allowed the Ps Claudia become a great aid to Ps Caesar, and saving the whole nation. Praise God! =) She is someone who makes Ps Caesar goes and do something abnormal, haywire, and someone who makes successes in lives. They held each other tightly together, with God. And they experienced even a more special love than others, because this love includes God inside. =)

whether she can helps me in my life, even for now or future, I do not know. It makes sounds like I am making use of someone, but on the other hand, why is it called the better-half or our soulmate?
I believe it's more than Love. It's something that God can bless me.

Am I ready for relationship? I do not know, but let it be. =)
Do not allow ourselves to answer this question, because when we asked ourselves this question, we tends to get control of these things, kinda troublesome to think of that, you know, hees. As much as I want my better half to enjoy, I hope she can also strive for better in Christ.
Let God answer and guide me through it. =)

I thank God for bringing back where I am, always being reminded. =)
Thank God for bring me back to the very original place where I am, a child in His Eyes, Christ-like character with great wisdom, and most importantly, lots of Love.
I confess that sometimes, I do things that I think I must do, however, at the end of the day, it's nothing. Because it's not out of Love. =) And whatever that is, make it Your Decision, oh God. =)

I Love His people, and they are the ones who I am always think about and fighting for, because I Love my Father in Heaven, Jesus Christ. =)
Just felt like a son who is going back to His Embrace, the Warmth that He gives.
Amazingly, whenever you feel cold, just listen to worship songs, and you will not feel that cold as you will feel the warmth that He gives into your heart. =)

My Prayer for you all to claim. =)
Dear Father in Heaven, I ask for Your Hand to be upon us, My Father. Hallejah, blessed is Your Name and is Your Children. Bring us to Your test. Forgive us from our sins, and make us to be sensitive to Your Holy Presence, never forget that You are always beside us. Thank You Father, bless You, in Jesus Christ most precious name I seek, ask and pray, Amen. =)

Went out for lots of time for this few days.

Tests are here but didnt study, but I am repenting.

Thank God for these few days.

Dad's car broke down, and lots. Haha, cool for me, because it's the first time I see this kind of thing. =D




His volkwagen Passat!



tyre got burst, not puncture!



parked there with the red triangle!
After taht the VW person came and repaired. $95 dollars. Well guess that day was one of the days where I have most fun and "Fun".

Sunday, thought after I left church is all the way home alone, but didnt expect in the end, I went with them to a Brazilian restaurant and we have real lots of meat, seriously.
we tasted chicken hearts, hot(as in temperature) and super sweet pineapple, chicken thighs, beef top roll, garlic beef, lamb chop, pork sausages, chicken chops, roasted pork, and lots of fried banana, which is not so sweet and oily, simply perfect. =D

As much as i thought after that we are going home, the day havent ends when we reached a call from Dad.



Wine tasting! it's such a great place, maybe it's not cosy, but certainly it is heart warming because they have great service there, and to listen to you. good place to pour out your heart. =)



lots of barrel of wine, I just hope they were all mine.. hees! =)





The white bottle is plain water and the green bottle inside is "Tropical Desscadene"
A sweet dessert wine, and Gab is hooked towards it. Haha.
A lot of cups and glasses hor? haha, I just drink the most, 3/4 glass of it.

Well, Bob went home with a red tomato face, Gab is getting high, James got a bottle for Sharon and Dad was smsing and talking to Gab.What about me? I was listening them talking. haha=D


Lots of places to discovery wor! =)

=Love is in the air!=

Today, I scolded my sister for spending so much money on my mum's account. And ya, as a brother, somtimes anger will sure burst. Often, we also caused our sisters' heart to harden.
I thank God today, for He has bring me back during that time I was working night shift.
Yeah, during that time whether is it Mother's day, or Christmas, I sure would get something for my family. That was also when bring my thoughts by to church, the promise that I made with God.

My sister wanted a $70 dollars or $100 to that cost amount of stuffs. I did give her because I can manage with that. I gave my brother $70 dollars to get an earphone. Guess it's during the Christmas.

Sisters are only for this once in a lifetime. Parents that we have on Earth is also once in a lifetime.
And of cos, I did wanted to say sorry, and so I called her but she didnt pick up the phone. Though so, I still messaged to say sorry to her. It was not easy, because I, as a brother, I have my pride and it requires my courage, that I dun have most of the time. But thank God that I have the humility in my heart, that He has moulded me. At the same time, it is neither difficult, because it's just a few words. To that, I realised that, I got a long time didnt say sorry to my sister. Maybe I didnt hurt for a long time, and I thanked God for that. Maybe she has taken me for granted, I dunno, but even if she does, I am happy, because that will means I been really good to her. =)
Sometimes, when things happened, it's not I dun care, I am just sitting there and watch over her. =)

Brothers are not easy to be. especially those who have younger sisters. Past hurts from family gives the stress to the elder siblings in family.
Sorry for me to say this, but allow me to take Samuel as an example.
He do loves his sister, and do take care of her and thought for her. As much as he does that, maybe his method of expression was not the way that the sister cant take it, as a result, it becomes something bad. Being brother is not easy, because it requires one to take care of the younger ones, which no one teaches us how to do it correctly and appropriately.

WE WANT TO PROTECT OUR SISTERS! But at the same time, we doesnt know, because no one teaches us, and not even our family memebers can teach well. Sometimes, it often builds up in us so much anger, that we became a balloon that can close back the holes that needles poke. What fills us within ourselves so much that causes us to be bloated?
It was the anger and hurts that the family has passed down onto us, as elder siblings. We are supposed to guide them, and yeah we do have a bit more time with them. But what are the appropriate values that we should teach them, when parents didnt even teach us much?
So yup, we wanted to do something, but we are not equipped with.
But I thanked God for these few years that He has changed me and guided me, exposed me to so many different situations, that we should have treasure each other.
After all, we are all flesh and blood.
Flesh that renewed by Baptism of Holy Spirit.
The Blood of the Lamb, that cleansed us from sins and holds us together.

At the same time, we should not push the blames and shames around. It hurts the fammily unity and yet, at the same time, when things go wrong, it doesnt speak that one person is wrong, but the whole group is wrong, and in this case, it's the family. Encourage one and another, for this is the family that God has built with your parents, protect it in all senses and bless your younger siblings, let there be a blessing flow down from you. =)

Parents, please stop complaining that you have no time.
Excuses are never good enough to stop you from doing something that is more important.
And ya, do you know what is important things in your lives? If you dunno, please, go and reflect.
Time is not used for spending on work only.
Express your concerns and your working conditions to your children.
Satisfy their curiosity, and even they may not understand, to the minimum, they know when you speak so much, they will feel that pain for you. Kids are sensitive, you know. =)
Prioritise things in your lives, and do not expect us to do things like you and those who are better. Among a few billons of people, there were just only these fews to be that outstanding. Please be grateful and thank God that you have a child with High EQ.

Children, please stop complaining that you have no time too.Time is not used for going out with friends and shopping. If God gives you a family, you should be happy, because you are not one in the at least a few or even more millions of homeless kids.
Do speak out your feelings to parents with regualr tone., because parents and most of the adults are not good in expressing their feelings.
Always allow them to know how you feel and they can change their plans for you in your coming future.
Because parents do understand, right Daddy Chris? =)