Saturday, June 02, 2007,
Today, I scolded my sister for spending so much money on my mum's account. And ya, as a brother, somtimes anger will sure burst. Often, we also caused our sisters' heart to harden.
I thank God today, for He has bring me back during that time I was working night shift.
Yeah, during that time whether is it Mother's day, or Christmas, I sure would get something for my family. That was also when bring my thoughts by to church, the promise that I made with God.
My sister wanted a $70 dollars or $100 to that cost amount of stuffs. I did give her because I can manage with that. I gave my brother $70 dollars to get an earphone. Guess it's during the Christmas.
Sisters are only for this once in a lifetime. Parents that we have on Earth is also once in a lifetime.
And of cos, I did wanted to say sorry, and so I called her but she didnt pick up the phone. Though so, I still messaged to say sorry to her. It was not easy, because I, as a brother, I have my pride and it requires my courage, that I dun have most of the time. But thank God that I have the humility in my heart, that He has moulded me. At the same time, it is neither difficult, because it's just a few words. To that, I realised that, I got a long time didnt say sorry to my sister. Maybe I didnt hurt for a long time, and I thanked God for that. Maybe she has taken me for granted, I dunno, but even if she does, I am happy, because that will means I been really good to her. =)
Sometimes, when things happened, it's not I dun care, I am just sitting there and watch over her. =)
Brothers are not easy to be. especially those who have younger sisters. Past hurts from family gives the stress to the elder siblings in family.
Sorry for me to say this, but allow me to take Samuel as an example.
He do loves his sister, and do take care of her and thought for her. As much as he does that, maybe his method of expression was not the way that the sister cant take it, as a result, it becomes something bad. Being brother is not easy, because it requires one to take care of the younger ones, which no one teaches us how to do it correctly and appropriately.
WE WANT TO PROTECT OUR SISTERS! But at the same time, we doesnt know, because no one teaches us, and not even our family memebers can teach well. Sometimes, it often builds up in us so much anger, that we became a balloon that can close back the holes that needles poke. What fills us within ourselves so much that causes us to be bloated?
It was the anger and hurts that the family has passed down onto us, as elder siblings. We are supposed to guide them, and yeah we do have a bit more time with them. But what are the appropriate values that we should teach them, when parents didnt even teach us much?
So yup, we wanted to do something, but we are not equipped with.
But I thanked God for these few years that He has changed me and guided me, exposed me to so many different situations, that we should have treasure each other.
After all, we are all flesh and blood.
Flesh that renewed by Baptism of Holy Spirit.
The Blood of the Lamb, that cleansed us from sins and holds us together.
At the same time, we should not push the blames and shames around. It hurts the fammily unity and yet, at the same time, when things go wrong, it doesnt speak that one person is wrong, but the whole group is wrong, and in this case, it's the family. Encourage one and another, for this is the family that God has built with your parents, protect it in all senses and bless your younger siblings, let there be a blessing flow down from you. =)
Parents, please stop complaining that you have no time.
Excuses are never good enough to stop you from doing something that is more important.
And ya, do you know what is important things in your lives? If you dunno, please, go and reflect.
Time is not used for spending on work only.
Express your concerns and your working conditions to your children.
Satisfy their curiosity, and even they may not understand, to the minimum, they know when you speak so much, they will feel that pain for you. Kids are sensitive, you know. =)
Prioritise things in your lives, and do not expect us to do things like you and those who are better. Among a few billons of people, there were just only these fews to be that outstanding. Please be grateful and thank God that you have a child with High EQ.
Children, please stop complaining that you have no time too.Time is not used for going out with friends and shopping. If God gives you a family, you should be happy, because you are not one in the at least a few or even more millions of homeless kids.
Do speak out your feelings to parents with regualr tone., because parents and most of the adults are not good in expressing their feelings.
Always allow them to know how you feel and they can change their plans for you in your coming future.
Because parents do understand, right Daddy Chris? =)
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