Ah, went through the toughest weekend.
Being insensitive. Haiz. Feeling bad and guilty and begin to think back.
What was I doing during that time, when making one of my brothers worried.
One of my brothers, came around 4:30pm and was there all the way. He smsed me and tell me that it's opposite of Katong Mall, and he was actually there looking over to the place.
Anyone can tell me what am I doing?
Ahh.. feeling guilty also no use, except to ask for forgiveness from him.
Think of that, I only feel so guilty, guilty. But what can I do?
Pray lo. =)


But back to the topic, what am I think during that time when I was waiting for him.
Something did happened during that day, when I was going to meet one of my brothers for dinner.
The sky suddenly turns darker and darker, and lightning was flying around. I heard a voice.
"Today is not a day to teach him, today is not a day to teach him."
and I regretted that I didnt listen to God.
Whom am I to teach him?
Whom am I to give instruction when my God is over me?

So I need to repent and confess for my stubbornness, anger and not being humbled.
True enough, this is usual three main factors that causes one to fall.
I choose to be angry, and the others began to set in.
Anger covers my eyes of faith and harden my heart, making me stubborn in some things, and God did told me and I think I was stronger than God, that's why I didnt listen to Him, which is so wrong. I dunno, maybe that quarrel with Shawn on Thursday doesnt ease the rage in my heart, and causes an aftereffect. Should not have done it.

Thank God still, at the end of the day, my brother still forgives me. Hees, and luckily, I broke myself. When I felt so hurt and I dunno why, I feel like giving up everything. It's easy, and it's easy to just drop everything and go away but luckily I chose not to. Praise God.

Eh, Jimmy is not so weak hor, (Even though I am shaky most of the times.) Oh well.
Looking positively, these are great things ahead of me, training me and building character.
Looking pessimisticly, still got so many trials in front, hah. =)

Thank God, today sermon was great. After seeing Helen's devotions, I was wondering, did I did something recently? Today, as I was rushing from Expo MRT station to Hall 9. I saw someone sitting there, sort of handicapped. I passed by him, and drew out my wallet. I knew, I have to go back, because God has always remind me this, and have to do this in Love, "feed my sheeps, feed my lambs."
However, that guy doesnt seems to need anything, but money. Oh well, that's the very maximum thing I can provide, even though I just gave one dollar.
Tithing, was kinda great, because for the very last 2 dollars I have, I tithed it to Father. Didnt intend to do it, but still done it in the end. Maybe I didnt do it in Love, but at the very least, as much as I do not want to tithe because my stomach is hungry, I still gave onto the Lord. But at the end, when giving offerings to the Lord, I asked Lord to train me, even my heart reluctant, I will still want to honour You, my Father in Heaven.

The Lord showed me a passage, about the poor widow give her last two coins onto Lord. Even though she might have given the most least, yet she was the most blessed out of the rich men. Yeah, I understand that. So honoured. =)

Today, serving tribe choir tribe was great, and I urged you all to join.
Those who have stage fright, after going to the stage, I guarantee you that the stage fright is almost all gone. Because our focus is on God, where we do not have to care how others' see. We are just like doing our praise with all similar actions. Though it's like exercise, it's still very good. And I did not regret.
I like what Chee Chiong has sent to us, what does serving the choir means to you?
It will means, giving my praise to God, and it's my honour to be at such an important platform. Praise God.

The fasting for the 40 days has started. It's the best time for us to mediate upon Lord's Word, and to cut fats at the same time, wahhaha! =D
Have you ever wondered, just these 40 days of fasting and outreaching, then Singapore got saved? Wont it be great?
I hope my heart will not die out by always be blessed by what God has placed in my mind.