Been feeling down the whole day, after sinning against my body. But thank God, I still went out with Samuel and his friends, great too! =)

I went to see "Secret" (不能说的秘密)today.

I guess it's by God's grace today that I went to watch Secret, because Samuel wanted to watch Rush Hour 3, which has a remarks from Samuel's cousins. =)
In the end, out of my expectation, from the sms I received from Samuel, it's "Secret" that we went to watch.

It's a kinda funny, romantic and great show. The director, Jay Chou, had experienced in directing Music Video, this time His directing for this movie was great. Sorry if I dunno how to say how to say whether the director is good or not. But I think, what he has done is very good already. Everything is not too messy. =) It has its meaning inside. You can go and watch it. REally recommended! =)



Every romance that one went through has a song, such as for this time Secret, it has "不能说的秘密" by Jay this time. I guess for mine, even though it's kinda weird, I have been encountering a song called, 恋爱达人. The best thing is, one day can encounter 3 times, it seems like this song is really finding me. =D Maybe I can be good at attracting gals and talk to them =D, but well, I still can only one in the end.



I thank God, I know whatever I have done cannot bring cover my sins, yet He who dies for me, gives me grace and mercy for these few days. He brings me back once again, the reconcilation of our relationship between Our Heavenly Father and me. I was asking Him, what can I do to fill me the loss of Him? It's to desire and come back to Him, asking for His Presence more and more, always seeking Him, like how King David's heart. =)

I realised that I am fighting the battle sometimes, alone and there's a limit, like Achillies. He is indeed great. I was listening to one song, that says,

"Because all I want is more of you.."
~ All my days, Paradise Band.

God didn't say much, He just left me with this phrase. More of Christ and even best, all of Christ. =) I dunno whether I can give him a bit more or a bit lesser, but I will try my best to give my all to Him. Just that phrase of lyrics, it leads to me to my answer, and certainly that is God's answer to me too. =) Thank God for that answer. =) And I guess, Dad, no need to reply my email le about Sins de. =) But Dad, you still have to pray for me hor! =)

I was reading a chapter and only fasted from food till halfway. God speaked to me when I was reading the chapter. I broke and confessed my fast, before I drink nice grass jelly milk. Because inside got grass jelly, if it's milk tea, that will be a different case. But whether is it or not, it's done so yup, I am going to extend my fast, wahaha! Just to be discipline and correct myself ba, especially every monday, where Shawn didi and Justin will go round and pray for the school. Starts from 12. =) Join us along if you can. =)

The book I am reading is Every Day with Jesus, the free sample from FOP, yet a very nice book=).

Continued from the chapter, about "the Shape of Soul", it talks about what actually our souls are actually made for God's Word. It seems like "you are what you eat" but that doesnt means that you eat nuts, you are nuts. =D

On the other hand, we do not really function that properly in our daily lives, not to sins and running from other sins, because all we take is the words from men like it's okay to do certain things to your body (like sex) because it's health. But to us it's one of the most sacred thing, because it signifies the unification of the two different genders bodies. Often the views from the world and most of the time, they holds critical view onto this world and to His people. The shape of our souls should be mould by Him. It's not by the words from others or anything, but believe in His Word in everything. Be sensitive, but not too critical to His Words upon on you. you will receive more than what you wanted, and usually, things that are really unexpected, maybe something that is lost long ago, and it's coming back to you again.=)

You will never know. To some, it's relationships that they can went back to the past and amend it. but whatever actions we do, it adds onto more consequences, just that maybe the outcomes have more or less side effects, and whether we dare to bear it or not. =)

My friend said I am very holy, haha, but I dun think so and I need to improve on that. =) It's like things on the earth. No one, nothing is actually able to be good in this world like weapons. It can be used to protect or kill people.
It doesnt matter what is its purpose, but it does matter when it comes to handling of the things and what is the true purpose in your heart and outcome of a topic when you are handling it.

Just follow His Words. =)

Another thing is, knowing our limits. It's very important to know our limits before we pushes our limits to highest level. I didn't really know my limits well, and went to see pornography and end up sinning against my body, my families, and ultimately, God. Feeling remorsed is nothing, but knowing what to do and repent and pray, was what I need to do for the moment after I knew I am sinned.
My relationship with God is needed so much that whatever I do, He will be there for me and I must prevent myself from sinning again. =)

=The Chain can never be lost by God's grace,in fact, it's always staying beside me.=