Willingness, are we willing to use by God?

Another thing is, do we actually see that every chance that we are given to live, there's an chance for anything allow God to work?
I thank God that I managed to talk to Chris(not Dad) at CRuSH and together with him, met Robyn for dinner.
But well, at night I do realised something that I am lacking of, something within me, and it seems to be clear after discussing with Dad about Justin, whether should I put Justin into an event.
The ownership, and not forsaking the chance that Christ had given to me.
Thank God for the chance to allow me to see my flaw, and allowing me to repent.
Thank God for today.
Thank God that Dad has blessed my family and me with something today, hees! =)

Well, Chris did told me something about yesterday. Though I didnt go yesterday, and he felt a bit sad, thank God I am still able to afford to treat him lunch. It seems nothing to others, but it's reallly something special for me and, probably for him too, because I am not him, though I can ask, hees. =)
It actually gives me a chance and making myself to put an effort to bless him. It's an chance, which everytime I can do it, if I am rich la. =) Thank God for that chance. =)

I do realised something else. It's not only me that I should have that sense of ownership, but within others, I must make the sense of ownership to arise from others within themselves. I dun have to scold, but rather making themsevles to realise. Who can teach me the best?
It's actually from anointed leaders, like Daddy! And of course, all from God. =)

Also, thank God for allowing me to be co-leader with Terence. Finally, hees. =)
A life to serve Christ, a leader building in process! =)

Today's verse was actually given by Justin, one of my dear brothers in the family!
Let's see what's within. =)

6 With what shall I come before the LORD
and bow down before the exalted God?
Shall I come before him with burnt offerings,
with calves a year old?
7 Will the LORD be pleased with thousands of rams,
with ten thousand rivers of oil?
Shall I offer my firstborn for my transgression,
the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul?
8 He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.
Micah 6:6 to 8.

Do you know and understand what do Lord wanted to put what's in front of your life, between your life and at the end of your life?
And what do Lord wanted the most?
We do not understand why do God want to put things that break our hearts and make things worse into our lives. And what do we need to do?

Just to trust Him and, To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

He wanted your life the most, for there's nothing for you to offer to satisfy His desire to Love you eternity, and He wanted to acknowledge you as one of His Children that is lost within the World. He missed you. But why, is it you?
Because you are special. =) Since He will give you the best, what should we do just to appreciate what He done?
Shouldn't we share this Love? =)
You may offer anything, though nothing will satisfy Him except you, Our Heavenly Father will just simply appreciate it. =)

“Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.”- Philippians 2:3-4

Morning before I sleep, I guess I have an spiritual attack. Lust images and all sort of flowery things. A very strong temptation of lust.
My mouth was open, and my muscles don't want to move. Dun be mistaken, just that I am tired, my body relaxed. =D Well it's hard to bring my mind back on guard once again, and praying, even though I am sort of half asleep.
I finally understood, even at during sleep times, I must be on guard every moment of my heart and my mind.
Thank God, I was emptying my mind and praying hard.

At the most vunerable moment of our lives, such as sleeping when we cant even protect ourselves, I thank God because He has always protected me. Well, maybe other animations or manga shows how powerful a man can be, but after all, I guess I am a very good example of a human being, where sometimes I can't even control my mouth from drooling. LOL =D
Weak in all circumstances and in lives, I just now felt quite sad, because I cant really go and have dinner with Chris. No it's not our Dad, but someone else under Leo. =)

Felt quite sad because actually I ask him and watnde to go with him very much, but well, Ididnt really carry much cash and I dun really have that much cash, so yup. However, thank God for Robyn and Chris, and ultimately God because the birthday boy(yes, it's Chris) says it's okay, andRobyn was there consoling me, and God told me, how much I can took an extraordinary step out and treat him some day, like tomorrow.
Well, how come I treasure this brother who is in the extended family so much?
This brother of mine, who I went through encounter weekend first time with. =) He was one of those who has dark spirits that trapped in him, and thank God it's all removed. Interestingly, he also asked one gal, who I used to like and maybe to the extent of loving her, to be her girlfriend, and of course, his offer is being declined.
That gal did told me, I was shocked but not jealous because she doesnt belongs to mine at all.
Well, thank God for letting me to know and see him again, an figure in my life. Well, not only him, others in the family do have the amount of space in my heart, the space within heart is boundless and I thank God for it, because He will always make my heart to expand for more space whenever it seems to be less, and from he start, my heart has most least space. And this brother of mine is in the family. (:

“Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children”- Ephesians 5:1
How much that our parents and our spiritual parents love us?
I thank God for giving me the chance to call Chris, Daddy and Joy, Mummy(though not most of the time, hehe=X) Dad has given up most of the things. So let us think back.
How much that our parents has given up for our sake?
Whenever we are down, they never forsake us. When we are lost, they tried to find us.
That was how much God love us, and what do God have within this verse?

Love His people.
Each and everyday, little by little, people are getting nearer to gospel because the Gospel was being shared around, parables, and examples.
Kids maybe smarter, but somehow, I still thank God for I am kinda dumb, maybe not smart but towards bright.
My mum told me that actually I can hidden my purpose and my stay for my part-time work like saying this," well, I will try my best to adapt with environment and work harder, however if I really cant cope, I will tell you."
I thank God, because it certainly showed how honest, straight and simple we are.
Naive? hmm, no no.
We may not be smart, if you define smart as clever, and has a own set of methods in doing things.
We may not be intelligent, if you define it together with knowledge.
But we are bright. Bright towards thing that we learn, able to see the things and each and every reason behind all the actions on the front.
It just only take time for us to learn, and of course, we are willing to learn because it makes us curious. Though there is danger, it will be the best experience with what our parents has taught us, wasnt it?
15I speak to sensible people; judge for yourselves what I say. 1 Corinthians 10:15
So is His people. They are bright, maybe sometimes too smart in their own ways. They just need guidance and lots of TLC. =)

1 Corinthians 11: 2 to 16.
Man doesn't need woman .
Woman doesn't need man.
But the heading is, Propriety in Worship.
I do not know what is propriety but I guess I can understand some of what Paul is trying to say.
Paul may have Jews' kind of worship while the Gentiles may have it other way, however, we shouldn't be criticising about how other do, for the Lord will deal with them if they did anything wrong. All has the same purpose, for the Glory of God. So whatever we does in good, it's for is Glory.
Why don't allow our every actions to be the Glory of God?
Let it starts from our mouth, for it's the very basic human body of how we praise God.

Praise God. =)

Like most of us - we do not want to see ourselves losing to others. Even when we are running in a marathon, our mind kept on telling us to be at least better than the average. If we were to see deeper in ourselves, we have yet died in self. If we have died in self, we wouldn't be having such thoughts. When running in the marathon, remember to look back to see how many people are still behind you. All the people are struggling to complete the race. Some of them starting to give up. Look back again and decide what to do next. Is it really important to run to complete the race in a certain time range you have set for yourself or is it giving up your priorities and lend a giving hands to people who needs it? The heart of giving stays in the receiver memories forever.

This is a small part from one of my dear sisters. =) Just managed to read this. It speak so much of myself, how I wanted to work so much for Christ. And being practical for myself in order to grow better and more fruitful, it's hard especially this time, when I was being refined by Christ, where everything in my life becomes more specific.

Yes, I did wanted to work more for Christ, maybe much more than my body can handle? I do not know, I just want more, like how others such as Ps Khong and Ps Kong can do in others' lives, and deeply in love with Christ. My heart, till this very day, is like I wanted to do more things, to show how much I loved Christ and I am much better than anyone in the family.
After I saw her devotions, well, I repented.
What's the point of working better and better, and comparing yourself with others, especially God makes us individually unique from each other?
Instead of making myself to compare with them, I will make them my inspirational figures in my life.

Everytime I heard of a parable about the farmers who came at different timing and have the same pays at the end of the day, I detected there's something within my spirit similar with those farmers who worked earlier to the end of the day, received the same wages of those who just came in at the very last hour.
It's actually the spirit of comparing, which we dun have to. One thing, yes we are unique. But what really makes one stand out different is how we see actually the inspirational figures in Christ made this all these things possible. Their acts are not for us to compare ourselves with them and to make ourselves to reach as a target or goal, but to give thanks together with them, because their actions had actually bring out the very desire from us to serve God, to the very best. Eventually, God just want us to enjoy the process, because that build us up.
Sometimes, how often, as time goes, we somehow had forgotton them, but still thank God as He never fail to place someone around us to help us. =)

I thank God for this opportunity to work with the family as a group, and some of them, to build the bond even better.

As Pastor was speaking and when he said,
"Ask and you shall be given.
Seek and you shall find."
It caught my attention.

And I begin to analyse the words, breaking them.
A simple explanation will be this.
You will ask from God and He will answer your prayers. So you will trust in Him more and more, and you will begin to seek Him.
There will be a deep desire within you to seek God for more and more, you will find Him slowly, through prayers and ministry.

But a sophiscated explanation will be this.
When the desperate you is seeking God and praying desperately, He answered your prayers and gave you the best answer. The desperate dun believe, so you prayed again. He showed the same thing again. After you followed the answered that He has given to you, you are enlightened by His words that He has given to you when He was answering your prayers.
A curiosity burns within your inner heart and you begin to look into the things of His. Miracles and miracles upon He done and answered through your prayers, the curiosity of a child turns to a desire to know Him more and better. You began to find Him, lots and lots more, and whenever you feels the fulfillment and satisfaction in your life, you know you have found Him. =)

Praise God. =)

Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom.”- James 3:13

It leads me back to one day, when James ask Dad that whether is there really good life when one knows about Christ. Dad said yes.
Christians may seems to be having tough days, but it will be different if you take it in the Way of Christ. It takes one to understand what and why is he doing that, why God wants to put it that way.
The weakness that you shown to others make other feel that you are eager to helps and need helps, and that makes one stand out from others, because if one really have to make his road smooth, one will have to bend and break according to situation, and that requires the wisdom from God to do it. =)

3Now I want you to realize that the head of every man is Christ, and the head of the woman is man, and the head of Christ is God.
1 Corinthians 11:3

It may make like God sounds very ego, but on the other hand, God is telling you, loves each other like Christ, like God because we all bear the blood of Christ. Equality is among us. =)

Praise God and thank God for today.

Today, though did much, went through with God much. =)

Having cell today and spent sometimes with brothers, just imagine doing that in Heaven, a luxury to have. But God's presence will be the best. Jesus Christ, Our Father in Heaven, talking to you and telling some parables. It's so wonderful. =)

Thank God that Dad shared something important with us, for this cell.
Give thanks and give thanks, what's the purpose of giving thanks?
Personally, my thought at first was, either we submit, or we know what Our Heavenly Father is doing, giving thanks, is like an acknowlegdment and trust Him like a child about His work. Our Heavenly Father, He simply appreciates it with His soft, heart I can say. =)
Well, today I learnt it's more than that.
Just a sentence, a praise that can bring power to break strongholds, concepts, and bring forth a new spiritual reborn within one, and lots!
Won't it be powerful?

Lots of things for me to do, and decisions to be performed, objectives.
It's tough and challenging but thank God because I can learn, and I will make full use of my broken pride to lend all that I can learn. The desire to be like Him, won't it just burn without your heart, when you know you can serve Him? =)

“And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.”- 1 John 4:16
I have this chain, it's given by a girl I like, or maybe love. Before or later, I do not know, but I give thanks to God for this Chain, because it's this chain holds a secret that leads me to all solutions whenever I don't want to listen to Him, that is Love.
Her likeness for me, appreciate her heart for me to go after Christ, leads to a super strong growth within myself towards Christ. Thank God that they sent Dad Christ beside to guide me along, and my brothers too. =)

31So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. 32Do not cause anyone to stumble, whether Jews, Greeks or the church of God— 33even as I try to please everybody in every way. For I am not seeking my own good but the good of many, so that they may be saved.
1 Corinthians 10: 31-33

As I was talking to Dad, he had shown me how important this family is, whether is it physically or spiritual. I realised that everything I do, will affect the family. I am led to a situation that I need to protect myself, my heart and my family.
We are all fighting for a dream, to fight for Him.
Guard our hearts, to protect our biological and spiritual families.
Ask our leaders for what is appropriate and not appropriate for us.
If the informative words come to you seems to be confusing for you to accept, then seek for a leader to guide you along, whether those words are appropriate or not. =)

I thank God for today, because it's by His Grace and Love, I didnt fell sick, because my attachment is going to end at 2 days time! Faster clear it then I will have more time to do other stuffs, though there seems to be isnt much. Still praise Lord that I didnt managed to fall to a fever, because I am having sore throat and slightly blocked nose. Of course, I must keep good hand hygiene otherwise it will affect my patients. So it's like after procedure, touching stuffs, wash hands with washing foam, or hand rub.

It's an indeed a great day, because I managed to practise some things that are really hard to come by. Well more of it, I thank God for one thing. That is he is going back to his old church.
He received Christ when he was secondary school, and backslided due to work and personal stuffs. I thank God for my answered prayer. Recently, he broke up with her girlfriend, like 2 weeks ago, because her girlfriend didnt love him anymore, and he told one thing that someone once told him, "only those who are under Lord's covenant will then be together long." It did came through, praise God, though he is really missing out something in his life for the past weeks. Thank God, because God has made him changed his idea of thinking. He thought he can convert his girlfriend after marriage, but doesn't seems to be that way now. MY mum was worried during that time, though I felt kinda fine with it, because Lord has assured me much, on the other hand, I dun really care much because it's still a regaining-from-past-hurts period. So yup, my heart is like after 1 week then say. He is better now, really thank God. Going back to church is even better! REALLY REALLY THANK GOD! =)

I confess that I told someone a lie today.
I guess I doesnt feel that right to tell him ba. =/

There's another thing I dunno whether I want to thank God or not, because it kinda confuses me. I dun like my attachment much, but on the other hand, it teaches me a lot. So guess I should thank God, it may makes me dislike it, but whenever I overcome, I doesnt have the sense of satisfaction, instead a deeper hunger was created within me. I guess God is making me hunger for more and more of His work, and sense of fulfillment. But I will never forget what He has told us at the start of the year, 'when we are doing His work, do not miss out His Spirit.' It applies to me, and I believe it applies to others too. =) Every thing that happens I give thanks to God, because it's all planned out.
“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!”- Philippians 4:4
I should be happy, and indeed I am, for all He has done. =)

27If some unbeliever invites you to a meal and you want to go, eat whatever is put before you without raising questions of conscience. 28But if anyone says to you, "This has been offered in sacrifice," then do not eat it, both for the sake of the man who told you and for conscience' sake[d]— 29the other man's conscience, I mean, not yours. For why should my freedom be judged by another's conscience? 30If I take part in the meal with thankfulness, why am I denounced because of something I thank God for?
31So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. 32Do not cause anyone to stumble, whether Jews, Greeks or the church of God— 33even as I try to please everybody in every way. For I am not seeking my own good but the good of many, so that they may be saved.
1 Corinthians 10: 27-32

I begin to realise there's actually a freedom for us, to choose lots of things in our lives. But what God hopes to see from is that, we are able to put others' salvations in front of ourselves.Whatever we does in life, we may give glory to God, and under the freedom of choices we have, we shall not choose what is not right in His Eyes. Not for ourselves, but for our friends and those who are around us. =)

Praise GOd. =)

Thank God today, setting such a beautiful day.
I thank God for one thing, that is at one of my lowest moment in my life so far, I managed to hold my feets on, by His grace, His Love and the Words that is spoke through His people. Today, I was actually looking at my friends' attitude towards me, especially one particular friend, somemore same secondary school with me. Sometimes I said, "bye", no one cares. I said "hi", no one cares. Or the best, just turn their faces away after they saw me. Maybe my cold and lame jokes can really cool one down, but was thatt the attitude I should be facing? I dunno, but I know one thing.
In the days of the future, I will face more and more of these. What can I expect from them?

Simply, nothing at all.
The main thing is, I must constant keep my attitude right and cheerful. Then "Five Loaves and Two Fishes" and "Beautiful Seed" were running in my head. =) Then next moment, I was giving thanks to God. =) I told God, "just use me, I am giving my all."
I am at a oncology ward, the spirit of cancer, depression and especially death(because got another patient passed away) are there. Most importantly, I am the flagbearer to stand still, holding His Flag to protect the people from all spirits, while on the other hand, welcoming Holy Spirit. =)
Today, while I was serving one of most irritating patients in my life, so far (and I shalll call him Bed 4), he's actually having sort of diarrhea. I guess I have forgotton something in my life. Well, we have changed his diapers like 3 to 4 times, due to something which he took before a procedure.
So ya, I need to confess that, I actually dislike the patient, and I was thinking in my mind, "wah this kind of people, who has a family which is christians, wants everything to be good, but cant do the same". But at the end of the day, I repented. He said something that has actually touched my heart and bring me back to the Cross. He said something sort of like, I am his best partner, and without me, he guess he wont be there.
Well, my tears wanted to drop as I smiled and shared it with my friends, but it didn't, and turned me back to Christ. I thank God for my heart is soft, and for his heart, that is appreciative. =)

Was it a Karma?
No it wasn't. It's also a Word from Christ too. Like how He thanks us to walk together with Him. Maybe there's one thing I had forgotton, I need to keep giving to Christ, but I forget that Christ is also giving me, and appreciating everything that we have worked out. After His death on the Cross, it doesnt end yet. He still continues to draw Himself to us, as we draw ourselves to Him more.

How about my attitude towards my friends?
Well, it's the minority who is treating me this way.
What happens if all treat me like this?
I can't say that wouldn't happened, but whatever so, I will still give the same amount of concern to my friends. He who gives grace to me, who others deserve lesser grace than that? =) What makes me different from another is, Love. Christ chose Love to talk to me and speak to my heart, and my heart will be coated and filled with love, ready to be broken again, and through me, I will shine His deeds to His people.
Treating people with same and constantly good attitude trains one, because you chose to be used and built by Him again and again. You may be broken but He will mend you, and told you even greater stories of what He does. =) Don't you want to be like Him? =)
I also want to thank Dad taught me that. =)
These "scars" in life, is deeper and gone into the bones and heart. But bone that are broken, forms a stronger bond between cells, and I have stronger bones. The Spirit is my bones, the emotions are my flesh. =) It's actually these Scars makes me stronger in life. Not in hardening my heart, but form the SPirit in me, and be dependent on Him more and more. =)

24Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.
25Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 26Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. 27No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.
1 Corinthians 9:24 to 27
What's the qualitifications of running the race?
How to make ourselves to be qualitfy to join the race?
Lots and lots. YOu may do all things.
Time, goal, training. But what takes and overcomes all these discipline to make yourself to work, it's the Heart, how much you desire, how much you wish it to God, and how much did you want to let God to control everything in your life?
An appreciative heart is more than any gift in this earth, because no gift is too small. =)
It speaks of how much Paul wanted to do:
*making his body as a slave from Christ.
*running towards God, for He is the Prize in Paul's Life.
*Glory that you believe it's from Him, belongs to you too. =)
*making Paul himself clean from sins and everything, so that God will look at Paul.

Do you want to work in Christ?
Do you want to finish the race and get the prize?
No gift is too small, because an appreciative heart is more than any gift in this earth.
It's all started just with a simple step, that is, read His Word and reflect with all your heart, just for that time. =)
It may means nothing to anyone here, but I can tell you this secretly... God loves it, especially you do it wholeheartedly, hees. =)

Dreams are what we make them to be.

There is hope in every heartbeat.
Tiny as it seems. You're a beautiful seed.
Every hope, every power,
lies in the heart of a seed that flowers.
Intertwined all across the land.
We're all seeds in the maker's hand.

A bible is like 5 loaves and 2 fishes.
And here, there's five loaves and two fishes in your hands. What will you do?
Thank God for everyone who is reading this, appreciate it. =)
Thank God for Dad and everyone and everything! Hees! =)

I was saying sorry to Dad about some stuffs and some doubts in my life while in his Camry. I know I need to repent.
I want to thank God for one song. =)
I thank God that I am able to talk to Hui Mun. It's been some while that we seen him previously and thank God, it's yesterday I thought of changing churches, and I asked God to speak to me, as I listened to this beautiful song. =)



A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly, the day turned into night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox, at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus, the kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out with the trust of a child, he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
To feed them all."



I often think about that boy when i'm feeling small
And i worry that the work i do means nothing at all
But every single tear i cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, i will offer up in prayer
So i'll give You every breath that i have
Oh Lord, You can work miracles
All You need is my "Amen"


So, take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small


I trust in You, i trust in You


So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small

~Corrinne May, Five loaves and two fishes.


A very strong and powerful song.
I was so touched.=)
It's enlightening, and refreshing. It brings out a point of view, a young child who knows nothing, looking at the crowd, aroused by the talks that is in simplicity, which kids can understand. Wasn't that we are being aroused at first?

Who does what caught my attention?
Who's that always guard my heart, and always giving me a soft heart?
Who's that always looks after my back?
Who's the one guide me and comfort me, when I was a young crybaby?
Who's the one always try to make me felt stable in life, when I am lost?
Who's the one who lead me to a powerful and lots of faith parent in my life?

I guess, none can take each other place. Another thing is, I guess that's why I always gambled, and lost a lot. =D But really thank God, because He showed me, how I was a child and no matter how I behave, I am always a child in His Eyes. I have won, actually lots as compared anyone. He equipped me with wisdom and knowlegde, and use them wisely.
Thank God for everything. =)

Often I think I am small, but I realised something. I maybe holding just like the boy, only 5 loaves and 2 fishes, a normal child lunchbox, I cant do anything much, but hand my lunchbox to Jesus and let Him to do it. The keys are God, and the lunchbox and my willingness. Anything that concern about satisfying the hunger, He will do it and split the food nicely, and made it sufficient to feed the thousands.
That makes me suddenly realised like, I hold the keys for the church and His Kingdom to expand.
I need to repent, because I thought of plotting against the leaders that is in front of us. Within my spirit, I guess I wanted to fight and win lots of souls into Christ. On the other hand, improve the ways and the faults that most spiritual parents made, and if can, perfecting my children and others into powerful leaders and parents of each other's lives. At the same time, I must commit them to God, because only through Him things can work out, and all things become possible. =)
When I simply trust Him, and done my part, in this scenerio, handing my lunchbox to Him.
A trust in Him, like a child, with no doubts. =)

It spoke of His Love to us.
He never fails to fill us up and more, don't He? =)
So, just surrender to Him, your all and all.
No gift is too small, just give Him whatever you have. =)
Let your sacrifice of praise be given to Him. Even if it is smaller than mustard seed. =)


Be obedient? Be humble?
True, you need that. But all after all, you must have the willingness to choose to be close to Him. After you choose to connect with Him, He will be near you. Choose a person to connect to, and He will make the way. Then thank God for all these, work on maintaining the connection between both, allowing God to be in control, and putting effort in following up and teach the other, how to fish. BE humble, be straight and may all be come from goodwill.

So what do I hear from God after I listened to that song?
Grace, and if I want any changes, I must work towards that!
Complain no use, actions do.
It will starts as long I got a son, and slowly guide him. Certainly I will change my teachings from the past generations, with the guidance of God, Dad and other elders, and goes with His teachings.
Thank God for Helen's prayer for me. =)

Well guess what?
Morning as I woke up, I seems like I am being put to a test, lust of the flesh. Yes, my mind is corrupted with those thoughts, but luckily I asked God to pull me back into His Arms, otherwise, guess I am going to sin against the flesh again. =)

Thank God today, yesterday, the rest of the days that is to come, and the song. =)

10Surely he says this for us, doesn't he? Yes, this was written for us, because when the plowman plows and the thresher threshes, they ought to do so in the hope of sharing in the harvest. 11If we have sown spiritual seed among you, is it too much if we reap a material harvest from you? 12If others have this right of support from you, shouldn't we have it all the more?

1 Corinthians 9:10-12.
It brings me back that about working alone in Christ. I thought of working by myself, since things cant be done on time sometimes, when we asked others. Consolidating someone, and planning to make him to stay in the church, and ask someone to further consolidate. Somehow he is being brought to other churches by someone. It used to agitate me that others bring the one I have been consolidating so long into other churches.

Lord told me this, Surely he says this for us?
Used to be agitated, but no longer now. Acknowlegding that we are Body of Christ, we are supposed to help each of us. Whether is it winning souls or growing in Christ, we are supposed to share each harvest. It's not the idea of Communism, but rather sharing the joy to others.

Winning souls are an effort working together, Where one is born, whether in which house of God, they can bring forth a revelation towards that House of God. =) He feeds us all to full, not only one. =)

Thank God for everything!

I want to give thanks to God, who always reply to my questions and requests. =)
While I was crossing the road to the other side, I wanted to take a bus, 195, home. So God told me a 195 bus is coming after the red man appears.
When the red man appeared, I stopped and saw a bus 195 to go pass me, and with less traffic. I know I can actually make it before the red man appeared previously and of course I didnt, causing the bus to pass me by. And so, I wanted to take 186 while waiting for the green man to appear, and guess what, bus 186 really appeared but it's coming soon, so I took the risk to jaywalk. Quickly I ran towards the bus stop. I wanna thank God, because He also helped me to stop the bus by the appearing of the green man, because after I jaywalked, the green man appeared and the bus stop, making time for me to run to the bus stop.
Maybe there's are really some things that are meant to break my heart and make me whole once again, and when there's a second chance, I will then strive my best. I thank God for building me. =)
Today, actually wanted to meet Helen and her friends for a run but I had something on at night, and ended up, I went late for it and everything ended. But thank God, I still make a point to go, with a happy heart, though it's over.
He answered my prayers. I wanted to have a dinner with a female friend, but on the other hand, trying to make it like a group dinner, I asked Wayne(Under Uncle Ee Jay) and Chris (under Uncle Leo) for dinner. My heart says, dun like, but I wil still do it. Cynthia was there, talking to her.

A wrong perception about another person will always come out from my heart, and there is always a doubt. But somehow, I know I have to repent because it's okay for me, but it's not right for me to think of that way, because the Truth is not like this. So I was looking in my heart, am I wanting too much physical contacts, and my female friend, tell me another thing, that is whenever man touches a lady, it's like a screw into his head. Who's head? My Father in Heaven's head and my head.
Immediately I can have an imagination of feeling towards it, because it thrills one man. On the other hand, I was like, acting like "Frankestein", like a joke to go with the verse.
A touch from a man to a lady is a screw into his head, and I think of it, it's a suffering as well, and a vicious cycle.
A vicious cycle because it will makes one hooked on doing that. Some will be blinded by that touch, because they thought only through this way, can make the relationship last longer, which is not, after some reflection upon what Dad has told me and I realised, as I ask God. =)
It's actually just the presence of that person that we really enjoyed and his very being. Whether where she or he is, just think of it and you will just smile, just because of it and you will like, "ahh!!! Thank God that he/she is here...". This and that. =) well, I really thank God about her appearance in my life, everyone who is around me and my families. =)

I wanna thank God for another thing, that is, He sent me a $30 cheque just in time because just then, my hi card just need to top up, hees. Thank God. =)

“What you heard from me, keep as the pattern of sound teaching, with faith and love in Christ Jesus. Guard the good deposit that was entrusted to you—guard it with the help of the Holy Spirit who lives in us.”- 2 Timothy 1:13-14

I see some of the people walk with very weak strength in themselves, but really inspires me is that, they are always so dependent on Christ and always believing in Him. That's something that makes them very strong, a heart that He will never despise. =) They are weak in guarding their heart, so they always let God to protect them and what's within them strongly. =)

19Though I am free and belong to no man, I make myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. 20To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. 21To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God's law but am under Christ's law), so as to win those not having the law. 22To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all men so that by all possible means I might save some. 23I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings.
1 Corinthians 9:19 to 23.
I do realised I do not like a lot of things in this world(neither one of us here), but I am supposed to make peace with people around and hold on what He has set, that is the Ten Commandments, for us. It doesnt meant to be easy, but as I began to get in touch with a lot of people, a lot of needs in their lives also surfaced, and challenges are up for us to take. It doesnt take much to take the challenges, because they are all objectives. The greatest challenge is the constant changes in their hearts. Are you be able to ask god to show you the way they are walking? and are you courageous enough to walk and find that person to understand him/her better?
All christians love God, because none knows us better than Him, but the point is, are we able to take out the step and work things out? And do you really feel His heartbeat? =)

You can fill the darkness with just one flash of light
Break the silence with just one word
One defiance starts a revolution
One life can save the world

On the steps of Washington, spriked like confetti
Thousands of people sing, ‘We shall overcome’
The preacher shouts: ‘Let freedom ring’
He gave his life for what he bellowed

You can be a witness, You can be a prophet, You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress, Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where foes can meet
Hope for the future, Shout it don’t whisper
Dreams are what we make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat, Tiny as it seems, You are a beautiful seed



Dreams are what we make them to be.
There is hope in every heartbeat.
Tiny as it seems. You're a beautiful seed.
Every hope, every power,
lies in the heart of a seed that flowers.
Intertwined all across the land.
We're all seeds in the maker's hand.

You, me, all and all are like seeds, no form, but with a heartbeat within ourselves, we will win all, especially the weak. Praise God. =)