Thank God today, setting such a beautiful day.
I thank God for one thing, that is at one of my lowest moment in my life so far, I managed to hold my feets on, by His grace, His Love and the Words that is spoke through His people. Today, I was actually looking at my friends' attitude towards me, especially one particular friend, somemore same secondary school with me. Sometimes I said, "bye", no one cares. I said "hi", no one cares. Or the best, just turn their faces away after they saw me. Maybe my cold and lame jokes can really cool one down, but was thatt the attitude I should be facing? I dunno, but I know one thing.
In the days of the future, I will face more and more of these. What can I expect from them?

Simply, nothing at all.
The main thing is, I must constant keep my attitude right and cheerful. Then "Five Loaves and Two Fishes" and "Beautiful Seed" were running in my head. =) Then next moment, I was giving thanks to God. =) I told God, "just use me, I am giving my all."
I am at a oncology ward, the spirit of cancer, depression and especially death(because got another patient passed away) are there. Most importantly, I am the flagbearer to stand still, holding His Flag to protect the people from all spirits, while on the other hand, welcoming Holy Spirit. =)
Today, while I was serving one of most irritating patients in my life, so far (and I shalll call him Bed 4), he's actually having sort of diarrhea. I guess I have forgotton something in my life. Well, we have changed his diapers like 3 to 4 times, due to something which he took before a procedure.
So ya, I need to confess that, I actually dislike the patient, and I was thinking in my mind, "wah this kind of people, who has a family which is christians, wants everything to be good, but cant do the same". But at the end of the day, I repented. He said something that has actually touched my heart and bring me back to the Cross. He said something sort of like, I am his best partner, and without me, he guess he wont be there.
Well, my tears wanted to drop as I smiled and shared it with my friends, but it didn't, and turned me back to Christ. I thank God for my heart is soft, and for his heart, that is appreciative. =)

Was it a Karma?
No it wasn't. It's also a Word from Christ too. Like how He thanks us to walk together with Him. Maybe there's one thing I had forgotton, I need to keep giving to Christ, but I forget that Christ is also giving me, and appreciating everything that we have worked out. After His death on the Cross, it doesnt end yet. He still continues to draw Himself to us, as we draw ourselves to Him more.

How about my attitude towards my friends?
Well, it's the minority who is treating me this way.
What happens if all treat me like this?
I can't say that wouldn't happened, but whatever so, I will still give the same amount of concern to my friends. He who gives grace to me, who others deserve lesser grace than that? =) What makes me different from another is, Love. Christ chose Love to talk to me and speak to my heart, and my heart will be coated and filled with love, ready to be broken again, and through me, I will shine His deeds to His people.
Treating people with same and constantly good attitude trains one, because you chose to be used and built by Him again and again. You may be broken but He will mend you, and told you even greater stories of what He does. =) Don't you want to be like Him? =)
I also want to thank Dad taught me that. =)
These "scars" in life, is deeper and gone into the bones and heart. But bone that are broken, forms a stronger bond between cells, and I have stronger bones. The Spirit is my bones, the emotions are my flesh. =) It's actually these Scars makes me stronger in life. Not in hardening my heart, but form the SPirit in me, and be dependent on Him more and more. =)

24Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.
25Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 26Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. 27No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.
1 Corinthians 9:24 to 27
What's the qualitifications of running the race?
How to make ourselves to be qualitfy to join the race?
Lots and lots. YOu may do all things.
Time, goal, training. But what takes and overcomes all these discipline to make yourself to work, it's the Heart, how much you desire, how much you wish it to God, and how much did you want to let God to control everything in your life?
An appreciative heart is more than any gift in this earth, because no gift is too small. =)
It speaks of how much Paul wanted to do:
*making his body as a slave from Christ.
*running towards God, for He is the Prize in Paul's Life.
*Glory that you believe it's from Him, belongs to you too. =)
*making Paul himself clean from sins and everything, so that God will look at Paul.

Do you want to work in Christ?
Do you want to finish the race and get the prize?
No gift is too small, because an appreciative heart is more than any gift in this earth.
It's all started just with a simple step, that is, read His Word and reflect with all your heart, just for that time. =)
It may means nothing to anyone here, but I can tell you this secretly... God loves it, especially you do it wholeheartedly, hees. =)

Dreams are what we make them to be.

There is hope in every heartbeat.
Tiny as it seems. You're a beautiful seed.
Every hope, every power,
lies in the heart of a seed that flowers.
Intertwined all across the land.
We're all seeds in the maker's hand.

A bible is like 5 loaves and 2 fishes.
And here, there's five loaves and two fishes in your hands. What will you do?
Thank God for everyone who is reading this, appreciate it. =)
Thank God for Dad and everyone and everything! Hees! =)