1-2 So here's what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don't become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You'll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.
Romans 12: 1 - 2 (The Message)

“Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign: The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel.”- Isaiah 7:14

Placing my life before God, and be a virgin. Pure in thoughts, pure in heart.
That's my definition of virgin. The world may said that a virgin, a person who has never had sexual intercourse, but that signify the pure body of what a person can offer to God.
It's hard, but can do it. Because we do have God.

Personally, I am being inspired by a lady. She is super straight type. Well, maybe she doesn't know how make decisions, management and planning, but at least she is sensitive and work on God's instructions. That was the best part of her. Because she is simple and straight, whenever she heard God's instruction, she will do it, though she struggles most of the time.

Thank God for her. (:

Galatians 2: 11 to 20 (NKJV)
Paul confronted Peter, for Peter is being in charge of God's ministry to Jews and led others to believe.
I said to Peter before them all, “If you, being a Jew, live in the manner of Gentiles and not as the Jews, why do you[b] compel Gentiles to live as Jews? Galations 2: 14b.
Paul was telling Peter that, there should not be diffference between Gentiles and Jews, though Jews are circumcised when Gentiles are not. Though so, Jews are like Gentiles, for they are circumcised by the faith in Christ, not by the works of the Laws. For the works of the Laws and judgements, bring death upon one's flesh.

BUT! BUT! BUT!
Why is it Peter?
Why not others?

Peter is the main in charge of the ministry of the Jews. As what we can see, Peter didn't correct what James has done, thus leading the others to wrong actions.
This leads me to some thoughts, and explain a bit more about why some of us still dun have spiritual children.
Are our lives actually align with God?
Well, I am not, I do have negative and violent thoughts. God is moulding me through Gkids. Tolerance, patient and control of my anger. Other parts of my life, like time management, priorities in life and most importantly, serving the poor, which is like everyone of us should be doing it, but not overdo it. (:
I sitll remember the others, telling me, "dun worry, God will provide you with children."
I am certainly assured by that! :D
And are you assured by someone who dunno how to take care of kids? :D

Well, sometimes I do felt like feeling proud if I got spiritual children when I am still like 20 to 23 yrs old, and got a few kids, because I do have something that I am younger, while others have only they are older! XD
But that is certainly something God did warned me, and Justin sent me this verse:
"Do you have a special talent? Are you better than someone else is at schoolwork? Or in sports?:)
Are you espcially attractive? You shouldn't try to deny your talents and abilities, but don't take the credits for then, either. Look at yourself realistically and thank God for making you just as you are. When you are given compliment, accept then graciously then pass them along- to Him. :)
What do you have that GOd hasn't given you?" 1 Corinthians 4:7."
This is the sweet ending that Justin gave, " Remember bro:, your talents are from God:)."
And that is very true, what we do have is Christ. And the characteristics that He build us up, it belongs to Him. We dun have anything because, our flesh has been died by judgement, during our salvations!
I thank God that, my brother came last week, and he is coming this week. Whether is he receiving Christ or not, I will leave it to God, because after all, it is Him who decides, and I will just walk through together with my brothers and my elder bro, with the family and with God. (:
Thank God who stopped the rain when I was walking home, from NUH.
Praise God. (:

While walking home, I thank God that He hold onto the rain and allowed me to walk home. It's kinda interesting experience. It doesn't take long, like a 25 mintues brisk walk and at the end, I walked up ti my house.

Thank God for that walk, and thank God for the day.
It's because the walk today, I do have a better understanding what is the way of Life, how should we shine even better and brighter.

I was there using my handphone for its torchlight function, and I realised that the very white light shone away my fear of dark. The road is dark, like the complicated world we are living traps us in dark prison.
I thank God because the torchlight shone the dark road. It brings hope within my world.

The feeling is like taking the Bible, the Gospel, Light of the World in my hand, and shining onto Earth. Showing the light to those who live in the dark. What is the most thrilling thing is that, I am handling with the Gospel, like a miracle in my hands.
Oh ya, just in case I forgot. Thank God for making the prayers came true, because that friday was a morning shift, and I can make it for the meeting for the event.
That was the day that the cubicle( that consist of 8 beds.), has actually 4 patients discharged from hospital, praise the Lord! :)

I thank God that He renewed my mind abouts my broterhs and sisters. I confessed that sometimes I really got pissed by those who said me, this and that, while they are not practising. But still, I thank god because He allowed me to see that they all came and had said it for my own good.
I repent, and shall humble myself towards all.

Thank God, really.

6As for those who seemed to be important—whatever they were makes no difference to me; God does not judge by external appearance—those men added nothing to my message. 7On the contrary, they saw that I had been entrusted with the task of preaching the gospel to the Gentiles,[a] just as Peter had been to the Jews.[b] 8For God, who was at work in the ministry of Peter as an apostle to the Jews, was also at work in my ministry as an apostle to the Gentiles. 9James, Peter[c] and John, those reputed to be pillars, gave me and Barnabas the right hand of fellowship when they recognized the grace given to me. They agreed that we should go to the Gentiles, and they to the Jews. 10All they asked was that we should continue to remember the poor, the very thing I was eager to do.
Galatians 2: 6 to 10.

What are the things that are importants in your life?
Enjoyment? Sleep? Friends? Fun? Pleasure? Relationship?

Paul, James, John, Peter, Titus and Barnabas.
What makes these few people, who is called by God and called as the Righteous and Faithful, different from those who seems to be important externally?

Who made and gave Paul the strength to boost Christ even more? Was it those who is important externally, or those who remembered the poor and work in God's ministry?
God, and those who are around that trusted Him, and had their Faith in Him.

So who are the ones who has pursued Lord faithfully?
Not those who looked externally important.

There are times that is hard, but we are here to support each other, like whenever and whatever, God is always with you, and the hearts of the brothers, including me, will be with you.
I am accepted as an apostle by others who are faithful to Him.
Pursue Him to be one, and you will be one.
those reputed to be pillars, gave me and Barnabas the right hand of fellowship when they recognized the grace given to me.
Heal my heart and made it clean.
Open up my eyes and to the things unseens
Show me how to love like You, Have loved me.
Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for your Kingdom's cause.
As I walked from Earth into eternally.

It's also applied the same when you looked for a spouse. Look for a mate that can leads you towards Christ, more and more. (:

“The LORD your God will raise up for you a prophet like me from among your own brothers. You must listen to him.”- Deuteronomy 18:15

Jia you wor, My brothers. (:
Pray Hard. (:

First fruit and Grace.
What's the connection?

I thank God for today's of an special wedding. One taught me some things about relationship, while the other cover what the first one has taught me, and taught me in SOL. They are special, they are like parents to me.

Well, today's wedding, I do see how much God is in their lives, maybe not too much, but I do really see a big part of their lives are committed to God, believe to God and trust that God is their all.
Main priority = God, in their lives.
So, whatever that is conceived from their minds and faith, first thing that came to their minds was God. That part of their lives are real testimonies for others, even for me.
Through their marriage, it makes it clear to me, during the route of marriage, everything is being tested, whether the male or the female is being tested, they are all prepared by God before they are put together, to go forth, onto a relationship, courtship and then into marriage.

EVery thoughts, feelings, problems that came out probe to them, they will put it onto the Lord.
First fruits, that came from mind and heart, they will present to God.

Why God is so pleased to have fruits that firstly bear, either by plants or animals?
Because it's a sign that we honour Him, and placing Him as the first priority.
Thank God for today, even though I lost my ezlink and my idenfication card, I thank God about what He used Terence has told me, that we should not take grace for granted. I thank God because He tells me, it's alway by God's grace that I am able to get back my wallet, my belongings at the end of the day. Why??

It's all because of Him. :)
That is why, I can get back my stuffs, every card that I have, I didnt lose it. And everytime, my belongings managed to get back to me, safely, all cards are still in one piece.

So when my thoughts about returning those lost items, well, I have to pray hard.

9As we have already said, so now I say again: If anybody is preaching to you a gospel other than what you accepted, let him be eternally condemned!
Galatians 1:9

Just believe what is written on the book, simply. :)
Thank God, He told me that. :)
9/12/2007

“I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.”- John 15:5,8

As today's sermons talked about Holy Spirit, I thanked God for that and, I confessed that I fell asleep several times, at least once.

But today's message are towards one's spiritual side, about how Holy Spirit touches us, and the next thing is, how close is your relationship with God and willingness.

I thank God that I was able to see that He is a person during that time, I know of Holy Spirit, and it brings me more understanding towards others.

I can actually see that, as I reaches towards Him with desire, one can look beyond what is on earth, understand themselves even more, and be sensitive to all other things.
Sort of ownself jump out from own body and view things in others' shoes.

Thank God for today, because I didn't got my pay and my brother, he came today.
I thank God that I didnt got my pay because, I tends to overspend my money. So well, I have to look well on my pocket.
I thank God that my brother came today, because I have been praying for his salvation. Maybe he has not rededicated his life yet, but it has actually bring him out from the most negative side towards Christ a bit more.
Thank God for that.

9As we have already said, so now I say again: If anybody is preaching to you a gospel other than what you accepted, let him be eternally condemned!
Galatians 1:9.

Being FAther's son, I do have the fear and scare that I followed the world.
What does "preaching other gospel other than Christ?"
Doing things that we shouldn't be doing, and others, especially giving out the wrong message about Christ.

Be careful. Whenever you want to preach, do put across what it is and clearly to others.

Praise God. :)
And thank God for my everything, so far.

I'm following the son.
He's the Holy One, let Your Will be done,
I give it all to You.

Let loose of myself towards all discipline.
That is what I have been doing for the past few months. But what's the difference this time?

I used to let myself to be controlled by my own thoughts and own reasonings. Ultimately, realised I am self satisfactory, I can't apply the things I learnt to teach others, in broader areas.

Practical faith doesnt exist, as I saw one of my friends' nickname in msn.
You are working towards something you wish to achieve and kick away. After months of trying, you seems to achieve it due to your own reasonings and subjective towards others' views. But when you reached that goal, how are you going to maintain it?
How are you going to keep on growing, without Him?
What's the difference between a prayer, who you seek Him and asked for when you are weak, and a reason that you kept yourself not to sin?

Why do I let loose of myself this time from all discipline?
Due to the past, when that time, all that I had done was just to please the eyes of the man, not to please the eyes of God. A reason for me to abstain usual bad habits. And this time, I let loose of myself from all discipline, beacuse I found out that those reasons that I used to abstain from sins and temptations, are nothing but theory. The strength dies off, as soon as you are able to meet that criteria.
But as I set myself and pray towards Christ, I do realised that I need to keep on going, and He will stand and walk with me, I lay all my weaknesses down on Him. As He shows me He is the reason that I should abstain from all temptations, that's where my real struggles in life begins.

During the time I was using reasons to abstain sins, I do expect something good back.
But this time, when I set my heart towards Christ, I do not expect anything.

My weaknesses is exposed once and again, but He is always there for me.
He will tell me," Hey son, I guess you fall again."
"But dun worry, let us try again."
"And son, you need to guard your part of that life even stronger."
Our Dear Father in Heaven, thank You for Your Love. You raised me up.

It is the same in the studies. I used to study because I like it and it's my passion. But when everything dies off, you know that you will have to just hang onto there and keep going. When you set your heart and mind towards Him, He will be your standard.

Holy, You are Holy.
All my life I give it to You,
'Cos Your Holiness is all I desire,
You're all I desire, my Lord.

Nick doesnt use any ways to change himself. All that he has done, is to just trust and believe, what is written within the Bible. And the Lord leads me to John 11: 25:
25Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; 26and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?"

Do you actually simply first trust, and then believe? (:
Or are you let Martha, only knows Him? (:

A long day of work, with babies crying and yup, other stuffs.
What really please my heart, was that God provide me a chance to bless one of my sisters, someone who I wanted to bless very long.
A special christmas gift, given by ideas from Christ, and I made the effort to walk out of the rain, tha special effort. God blessed me with food today by my friend.
What's so special?

God sees the effort that I saved money to get someone a gift, and blessed me with someone's food, that she find it too much and shared with me. May sounds like it's leftover, but it's really real lots, like the whole pack didn't eat.

Well, with that and the rest of the money I have and coming to have, I can save up more.
Thank God for the food, and the money saved.
I want to confess a lot of things.
I am an accomplice of killing a dragonfly. Thank God I didn't go and see how it was tortured by my colleagues, because if I go, I will kill it, instead of letting my friends doing it.
Still, I thank God, because my heart is changing, from doing bad feeling good, to doing bad felt guilty and bad.

Well, thank God. Because I won't like myself to do it again, and my friends to do it in front of me.
Now, repenting.
I thank God one of Justin's devotions.
MAtthew 7:12.
Do for others what you would like then to do for you.

I will like others to do lots of God to others.
“Therefore Jesus said again, "I tell you the truth, I am the gate for the sheep. I am the gate; whoever enters through me will be saved. He will come in and go out, and find pasture. The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”- John 10:7, 9-10

10Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.
1 Galatians 1: 10

It was very same. At the start, should we catch the dragonfly at the start?
I do not think so. I dunno what's in my thoughts. I will just repent, because I know it was not right.
And thank God for all. (:

I was there, listening to the baby's cries, as the simple child was being poked by a needle, for some special medication needs. My colleagues, especially one of my close friends, she was there, dun want to see, felt like crying and said dun feel like doing it anymore.
She was lying her forehead on my shoulder, and I said,
"let's go out."

That baby was only 22 days old. The mother heard the crying of the child, was standing outside there, with red swollen eyes and nose - presymptoms of crying. And I was asking her whether is she okay or not. Her frustration was vented on me slightly, saying "Don't ask me whether okay or not!"
I was there, saw a nures came out and asked her whether want to go and get a tissue for her. Well, she didn't say much, and I went ahead with my action, going to that mother with a tissue.

Out of expected, the mother rejected the tissue and don't care about anything, saying, " I do not need, go away."

Ahh... shucks. Of course I don't like that.
I was wondering,
Did I do anything wrong?
Why did I smile to the mother, when I was walking out of the room and that mother was waiting outisde?
And why is my heart felt that way instead of feeling the heart pain?

Holy Spirit asked me this, Don't feel heart break when you heard the sound of the crying baby?
I was asking myself, why should I felt a heartbreak?
I believe it's necessary for the baby to have that needle because, without that the baby can't recovered. Is my heart being hardened?
And the cries of the baby, this time, shaken my heart slightly. I looked into her eyes, and my heart was was there and shaken once again, saying it is necessary for her to recover.
I was smiling there, knowing that the baby will recover and hoping that my smile will not worsen the day of the mother.
Her current suffering is little in my heart, but her recovery and better state of her was my greatest joy. :)
That was my thoughts.

Sometimes, things that we are doing may seems wrong, well God make the wrongs to be right most the time. Wrong things at right timing, seems to be the best.
Another thing is, He did told us, but we didn't listen to Him.
Well, it makes things that seems to be logically right, well, is it right for the correct standard of God?

God reveals slowly to me about empathy, which I seems to miss out. I confessed and I repent.
When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”- John 8:12
My God, my light, lead my heart to you. :)

6I am astonished that you are so quickly deserting the one who called you by the grace of Christ and are turning to a different gospel— 7which is really no gospel at all. Evidently some people are throwing you into confusion and are trying to pervert the gospel of Christ. 8But even if we or an angel from heaven should preach a gospel other than the one we preached to you, let him be eternally condemned! 9As we have already said, so now I say again: If anybody is preaching to you a gospel other than what you accepted, let him be eternally condemned! Galatians 1: 6 to 9

Nick speaks of the simplicity of Bible. So does here.
A powerful testimony was shared. Simple, no sophisticated words. Just some simple language.
Like how Christ shared simple knowledge to the children and adults, before He shared the bread and fish of the child to feed the thousands.
Nothing is more stronger for Holy Spirit to work on weakness. (:
My weaknesses are submitted to Him, for me to go towards His standard of perfection.

11Finally, brothers, good-by. Aim for perfection, listen to my appeal, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you. 2 Corinthians 13: 11.

thank God for everything.

Edited*

Today, I need to repent on another thing, that is my disbelief.
Power in prayers come when one believes it's powerful.
Not only beliefs, but believing it will become powerful, more than what it is.

I confessed and repent.

“Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.”- John 6:35

I was there struggling with my wicked anger. Sins and lots of evil thoughts, of playing humans. Lust falls in. Homosexualism also fall in. That's the very truth and deep that came from my thoughts.

I confessed and I repented. It was somehow like morning, "Oh Lord, I am weak.
Can you set me free from temptations and sinds, my Lord?"

Taking the first step to submit it to God, making Him my bread was the best thing for my day. I thank God that I was filled by Him, whether is it when I was tired or not. well, every moment today in attachment, was an impossilbe thing that He worked out for me today in my life. (:
Thank God, otherwise, I can't change much without seeing it, and sensing it by Holy Spirit, I am still the same old self.
MY weakness, will turn into a testimony, for the weak to hear.

5Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; test yourselves. Do you not realize that Christ Jesus is in you—unless, of course, you fail the test? 6And I trust that you will discover that we have not failed the test. 7Now we pray to God that you will not do anything wrong. Not that people will see that we have stood the test but that you will do what is right even though we may seem to have failed. 8For we cannot do anything against the truth, but only for the truth.

Was it unable overcoming temptations and fall into sins, a failing of the test?
It is, on the other hand, seek for Christ, to ask Him to stand with you. Because without Him, without Holy Spirit, it is totally impossible to fight, or overcome your sins.
Often, whenever I sinned, I choose to sin, that is not Jesus Christ but me, sinning against Him. If it's Him, He won't do that.
So, what does it means, when we sinned?
It makes us a sinner, if we dun repent. Does we continued to sin? No. For Jesus Christ does not do that. If you said He does, it's because you wanted. But at the end of the day, He didn't sin but you.

That is the Truth. He may do not anything beneficial for you, but necessary for you.

So, just trust in Him. :)
Praise God...!

Today, everything was great.
Band practice, time with others like lunch, and things went the best, especially in cell, dinner and shopping!

Been a long day, and thank God for today's cell message, it sets me free about my thoughts with Our Father in Heaven.
Thank God that the guitar hit the floor, to wake me up from falling asleep.

Busying these few days with work, and next thing coming up is attachment! Going back to hospital, how it seems to be and like...

I thank God for the close relationship that I have with the younger ones in the family, and having a great fellowship with the older ones. XD.

Lots and lots. But thank God, for the coming dinner tomoro, because it will be a family gathering for my family and me. Guess tomoro will be an enjoyable day. (:

Thank God who leads me away from temptations. thought somehow yesterday I fell into the sight of lust. Confessing now and repent. (:

Thank God for cell today. Nicks speaks about his life, a pure testimony that really inspired me.
What is trust and believe, and the real gift in my life.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.”- John 1:1-2, 14

The Word that I learnt from the Book written in Love(Bible), has become flesh, part of me. :)

"Every matter must be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses."[a] 2I already gave you a warning when I was with you the second time. I now repeat it while absent: On my return I will not spare those who sinned earlier or any of the others, 3since you are demanding proof that Christ is speaking through me. He is not weak in dealing with you, but is powerful among you.
2 Corinthians 13: 2 to 3.

What are the things you think God speaks into your life?
Do you believe them?

IT came to me this:
"Every matter must be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses"
If you are not sure, ask someone to pray with you, prophecises to you. This will certainly ensures what God really want to speak to you. Even clearer, than ever.
Do not listen to one sided story, because it may not be true, becaus humans has feelings over it, and maybe prejudiced to that person. Because it is said,"One witness is not enough to convict a man accused of any crime or offense he may have committed. A matter must be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses."

Praise God. :)

Facing the world and becoming like them, is too easy.
Stepping into any hole, which is created by Satan and fall deep into it without realised it was too easy for a man who walked blindly on way of his daily life.
Wasn't it a pity to see that man, blinded?

Well, today I did stepped onto a hole, set by Satan.

"Life is like a drama, I am part of it, and even you are acting too." My colleague told me while I was changing my shirt, making hair. I was irritated.
My friend was telling me, "our lives is like a puppet, after using, God can just cut off the strings, poof that, there goes your life..".
Of course, things may seems to be that. But my mind was, what about afterlife?
It challenged me.

I confessed and repented. My thoughts, went astray, real astray. Using the ways of the World to teach people, to have a hardened heart to deal with other things.
But God showed me something in this very colleague of mine. He may seems to be kind dumb,(sorry if I offended you), he is persevering, and he is super "mouldable". How people laugh him, scold him (even if he cries), and ya, things over and over bullying him, making him under pressure, he will just left the place and came back with a smile on the other day, with worries on yesterday, happiness and smiles on the present day.
Well, thank God, that he helped me clear the side plates that is required for the next day, and that showed something that is very different, how am I going to spike the deep him within and make full use of it in Christ?
Praying will be the best first step. His help in my life, from this moment, make a difference in my life. Well, there are thoughts for me to leave my current workplace, but he will be part of the reasons that I should not leave the place. (:

Would you believe me, would you listen if I told you that
There is a love that makes the way, it never holds you back

Who would have thought that God would give his one and only Son
Taken a stand upon the cross to show his perfect love

So would you break free, would you break free get up and dance, in His love

Chorus
His love never ends, yeah.
There's no escaping the truth, there's no mistaking its you
God forever we'll get up and dance, get up and dance and praise you
There's no escaping your love, there's no mistaking your light
Across the world we will get up and dance, get up and dance and praise you

Now is the time to take this freedom that has come our way
Offer our lives to see the glory of His name

Never all our days
We are holy Lord, holding onto all your ways
We are holding on, holding on to all you've said and you've done
We are holding on to your love
Now we will dance
Break Free - Hillsong.

Break free from the World and drown in His Love. Let us dance! (:

But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything in it will be laid bare. Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives”- 2 Peter 3:10-11

1I must go on boasting. Although there is nothing to be gained, I will go on to visions and revelations from the Lord. 2I know a man in Christ who fourteen years ago was caught up to the third heaven. Whether it was in the body or out of the body I do not know—God knows. 3And I know that this man—whether in the body or apart from the body I do not know, but God knows— 4was caught up to paradise. He heard inexpressible things, things that man is not permitted to tell. 5I will boast about a man like that, but I will not boast about myself, except about my weaknesses. 6Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say.
2 Corinthians 12: 1 to 5.

Why do Paul choose to say, boast?
To spread the news and all about Christ, and things that he has done supernatural. So, we can just tell ma, no need to boast.
Well, it's supernatural things, which is impossible happened to us. Deep within our conscience, it did happened to us, supernaturally. The way that we used to tell the others is by mouth, did not went through exaggarating words or anything. Just words, what He has done, and what we have went through.
Boast, because the world thinks that we are boasting, beacuse all things that He done is supernatural, for those who didnt know Christ, know these kind of things couldn't have happened. Certainly it's exaggarating.

Well, it's all so true, because He really is around us and work with us. (:

Praise God! :)
Thank God for today.

Thank God, for what I have now.

Maybe I may seems to be an open and free man, but there's a lot of the things, haiz, I am quite slacked too, and trying to change.

I do need a soft heart, on the other hand, I need a clear heart, about the things I done and all that I need, is to listen to God.

It's not easy and it's not fun to do it too. Clear all distractions and it takes me away, free from all things.

He is the way. That's all. (:
And my families, here I am to make you success. (:

“Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good. His love endures forever. Give thanks to the God of heaven. His love endures forever.”- Psalm 136:1,26

7Now we pray to God that you will not do anything wrong. Not that people will see that we have stood the test but that you will do what is right even though we may seem to have failed. 8For we cannot do anything against the truth, but only for the truth. 9We are glad whenever we are weak but you are strong; and our prayer is for your perfection.
2 Corinthians 12: 7 to 9
Specifically, precision and perfection.
CAn't do anything much to lead that person to Christ?
Too bad.
Can't help anything much?
Too bad.
EVerything seems to be fading away.

Prayers can stop the truth, that everything is fading away.
Prayers are perfections because they are precise,
Praying is for weaklings for us to do, like me.
A short story to share.
One waiter was actually cleaning his glasses and preparing to put them somewhere. But a slip of hand, he dropped one glass. Although this happened, he still thank God.Then when he want to put the other glasses, everything falls off. Out of 20 glasses, 7 was left. He still thank God, for a lesson about his clumsy.
He prayed for the first time, a glass was being saved.
While clearing up, he prayed, second glass was being saved.
Well thank God for this guy.Cos, at the end of the day, a lesson is learnt and God listened to your prayers, and everytime you talk to Him leh... :)
He answered my prayers on time, and He showed me another thing, He is beside me. (:
There will be no ,"if He is not beside, you."
Thank God for everything. (:

God is good all the time, wasn't Him? :)

Certainly, He is. Today, though I didn't really do well in my test, or maybe I can say I am going to flunk it, and though it's hard to feel good, thank God, not because I, but Him who pushes me through and talked to me with a clear mind.
Eh, this time yes, though it's only 3 tests, my anxiety was there, and seriously, I was quite disappointed with myself that I didn't study, or maybe I did, just that I let down my guard, and not studying. Certainly there are voices asked me not to study, but at the end, I choose not to study. What can I do then?
Just prepare myself towards everything, that is possible, and thank God for all, especially moments that He speaks to me. (:
I am certainly tired, but my day hasn't ended yet. (:
More to come... :D

What taught to me daily, it's actually God's grace and how wisely God has taught me and how I can learn. He taught me slowly and know when it's the best time and opportunity to strike. All we have to do is just wait and strike on the specific spot, where one is weakened and we can either gain control of taht person or situation. Just hear careful when He said you can strike. (:
Make sure, you think what God wants you to do only, no more. (:

11I have made a fool of myself, but you drove me to it. I ought to have been commended by you, for I am not in the least inferior to the "super-apostles," even though I am nothing. 12The things that mark an apostle—signs, wonders and miracles—were done among you with great perseverance. 13How were you inferior to the other churches, except that I was never a burden to you? Forgive me this wrong!
2 Corinthians 12: 11 to 13.

I was actually thinking about this, 'except that I was never a burden to you? Forgive me this wrong!'.
I thanked God for telling me this. Was He a burden in my life?
I confessed about this. I want to listen to Him at every moment of my life, and listen to worship and how people inspired, just with songs, and reflecting abou my life... (:
I thank God it appeared to me and truthfully, yes I do feel it sometimes.
I want to jio(chase after) this girl.
Going through the church procedures, it's so stupid and long.

All and all. What strikes me and continue to serve Him, was His faithfulness, Love and all that He has, because whatever I want, it's not the best, because it's what I want.

SO yup thanks God. So much. Hees (:

A long day down the road, another 5 hours of sleep for me today. Thank God today, because He woke me up with a thunderstorm, with thunder as my alarm clock.
Thank God today, though I sinned against Him, lust of flesh again.
What did I learnt?

Though sinned, I did repented. This is what God told me.
Sin, we must make sure we do look out. On the other hand, we do look for things that is good and glory to Christ. It's what that is in front of us, that is our goals, make us motivated. He told me through my dreams.
What does a guy do when they saw girls with mini skirts on the escalators? Looking at it is what usually happened.
In my dreams, a girl was sitting like with her legs up upon a glass door. What happened is that I stand at the glass there, covering up. I was astonished, by what God has showed me. The dreams came from a heart, and show what is deep within my conscience.

I thank God for that, because indeed I have changed one of my faults, my weaknesses in my life.
Thank God. I didn't done my best yet, cos I did peep in my dreams. However, I will work towards it.(:

Thank God for today's dinner, and my real daddy.
Waited for my daddy to come home and go out together with family for dinner. I believed my dad has tried his best to rush home and changed, but at the end of the day, he didn't went out with us. I do felt his disappointment and greeted him goodbye with a kiss on his cheek, asked him not to be angry. Why will he be angry?
Can be a lot of reasons. in my mind, I thought at the start, it was a mistake for him to come along. It may seems to be that case, but of course within my heart, I do have the disappointment within myself to think that way.
After all, I still thank God, because I do treasure this very Daddy of mine, and each Daddy I have, because it's them, made a difference in my life. They do it, because all for Love. (:
When I reached my bro's car(it's rented), I was telling about how my dad feels. Well maybe I am his son, that's why I understand his feeling. My tears wanted to roll down, but I held onto it.
Well if that was me, I will do the same.

Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God.”- Colossians 3:16

6Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say. 7To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12: 6 to 10.
So, in tough times, when sins and temptations come, it's actually the messenger of Satan that brought that along.
What if we are facing Satan Himself? Do you actually have the fear?
And fear, reminds me of yesterday, of how I have actually walked through dark, silent and lonely road. I bit onto my fear and called upon the name of Lord, while listening to worship, allowing god to eradicate this fear of mine in the dark road.
What is my fear?
Dark, and loneliness.

At times, when Satan visits me, I can say no about fearing him, though my heart says otherwise. But whether is it so, God is good all the time, and He is with us all the time. (:

Praise God. :)

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

Thank God for the great time that I spent recently.
Studies, with friends, sharing my life experience with someone else. All, cannot compared to the time I spent with Him.
Sorry about not writing devotions yesterday, because I chose to not to write and going to sleep, around 3 but sharing my life experience and a tiny bit of Christ with her, in msn. Just from yesterday, I began to see my priorities in my life. and well, I am changing my priorities slowly, adapting to the new found christ in me. (:

This time, there's a new born in Christ within myself, an new salvation for me. It began, where a part of my life, building up my basic stuffs like management, priorities in life, weighing circumstances and situations. I am trying to reaching to His standard, you see. (:

The renewing within myself begins as a slow process. Ultimately it starts off with a heart.
Today, as the sermons talked about Eternal life.
Yes, salvation is important, and it's the first step.
But remember that is the first step, and that will mean you need a lot of other steps to reach your destination.

23Someone asked him, "Lord, are only a few people going to be saved?"
He said to them,24"Make every effort to enter through the narrow door, because many, I tell you, will try to enter and will not be able to. 25Once the owner of the house gets up and closes the door, you will stand outside knocking and pleading, 'Sir, open the door for us.'
"But he will answer, 'I don't know you or where you come from.'
Luke 13: 23 to 25.

I also thank God for one thing, that is clearing all the emotions about relationships in my heart. There are a lot of unclear doubts, yet I believe most of them are lies. For He has warned me this:
13For such men are false apostles, deceitful workmen, masquerading as apostles of Christ. 14And no wonder, for Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light. 15It is not surprising, then, if his servants masquerade as servants of righteousness. Their end will be what their actions deserve.
2 Corinthians 11: 13 to 15.
It makes so blur, and I finally understand one thing.
Sometimes, God uses songs to encourage people.
Satan like to lie.
What's the link? Do check your heart about what God wants you to do actually. He wants you to do that specific thing and you better complete it. And those things that are after His voices, like our thoughts, put it aside, because He only asked us to do one specific thing. That's all. (:
As it clears my heart from all those relationship stuffs, whether is it now or the past, my heart seems to be clearer and able to hear that bit more. I didn't choose to give up on all those relationship stuffs, but I chose to leave it to God and walk with Him, taking my time to pick my type. (:
21To him who overcomes, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I overcame and sat down with my Father on his throne. 22He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches."
Revelations 3: 21 to 22

2 Corinthians 12: 16 to 33.
20In fact, you even put up with anyone who enslaves you or exploits you or takes advantage of you or pushes himself forward or slaps you in the face. 21To my shame I admit that we were too weak for that!
In times, i do have weaknesses and others see it, well, some of course will laugh. Though so I will do one thing.
I will eventually left a grin at their back.
30If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness. 31The God and Father of the Lord Jesus, who is to be praised forever, knows that I am not lying. 32In Damascus the governor under King Aretas had the city of the Damascenes guarded in order to arrest me. 33But I was lowered in a basket from a window in the wall and slipped through his hands.
In bad circumstances, maybe I am weak, yet the fact I'm protected. Things doesn't seems to be so bad, because I can learn.
The very fact that Christ hanged on the Cross, that He may seems to be weak, is to complete the task that is given. And that saves you at the end of your life. He can come down, but He doesn't want to, so that He can get the key of life from Satan.
2 Corinthians 12:9
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.


Show your vunerabilities to your families. So that we can guard your back with God. (:
Let us know, don't be selfish. (:

Thank God for everyday! XD

Felt bad today, because I had actually forsaken God for one of the temptations that I am facing, that is relationship. I do realised that there is a dryness in me, and it's only through encouragements and the care from the people around me, and ya, thank God for them.

"Are you a full timer?"
"No, part time."
"Your service is very good."
"Thank You." *Smiles*
This customer, actually came before, and back to try something else.
The very fact that I got so delighted by an encouragement from a customer, it made me recognising the dryness within. This dryness is usually replaced by the worship songs from my mp3, but recently my mp3 ran out of battery, and I was busy rushing from my home to work. The encouragement, is also from God, who saves me everyday. (:

Secondly, it kinda makes me sad when I like pre-believer.
Well, there is my type of gal, and I kinda like her. On the other hand, she's a pre-believer. Too bad. The distance, physical wise, it seems to be near. However, in other circumstances, our distance seems to be so far away from each other.

Eh, this kind of "liking" feeling is something like a crush, which is not good. I am attracted to her because of EROS, which is like, attracted to her by physical looks, which is not even something at all, as compared to Love. And yet, when this question, "who will choose, Me or her, at the end of the day?", that God had asked me, disappointing enough, I chose to forsake God.

I confessed and I repented during the way to take bus home. I really hope that I will not become either of the basketball boys just left after God and Dad have done some good and makes me grow, and even like Peter. I want to be someone who is better, and not lacking of God, Dad and the families that I have.

Another thing came to my mind, as I reflect and read Dad's devotions
Till I read Dad's devotions, one sentence came to me.
"As much as it was my desire to see him become an officer, for all the glory and honor of it, the whole experience brought me to another question - a very important one: 'what do you want to get out from your 2 years in military?' "
Certainly this is long enough, but this is a sentence, no fullstops. (:

What do I want at the end of the time, and what is my relationship with God, and what is my relationship with God is based on and built with?
Was it something so weak, so easily to falter?
And... am I working towards what I aim for?

I want my relationship with God is good, at all times.
I want all the people to be saved at the end of the time.
But this relationship that is built with Him, is based on... I do not know how to answer this question.
5 For I consider that I am not at all inferior to the most eminent apostles. 6 Even though I am untrained in speech, yet I am not in knowledge. But we have been thoroughly manifested[b] among you in all things.
7 Did I commit sin in humbling myself that you might be exalted, because I preached the gospel of God to you free of charge? 8 I robbed other churches, taking wages from them to minister to you. 9 And when I was present with you, and in need, I was a burden to no one, for what I lacked the brethren who came from Macedonia supplied. And in everything I kept myself from being burdensome to you, and so I will keep myself. 10 As the truth of Christ is in me, no one shall stop me from this boasting in the regions of Achaia. 11 Why? Because I do not love you? God knows!
12 But what I do, I will also continue to do, that I may cut off the opportunity from those who desire an opportunity to be regarded just as we are in the things of which they boast. 13 For such are false apostles, deceitful workers, transforming themselves into apostles of Christ. 14 And no wonder! For Satan himself transforms himself into an angel of light. 15 Therefore it is no great thing if his ministers also transform themselves into ministers of righteousness, whose end will be according to their works.
2 Corinthians 11: 5 to 15 (NKJV)

I was looking and reflecting about these verses, and to understand the revelations that God gives Paul and what really hold Paul to be so long in ministries.
It can be a lots, but what really holds Paul in Christ, is to spead the good news. His relationship is built on His faithfulness towards Paul, especially in times, when God gave Paul grace in the earlier days.
Paul built his relationship with God based on one thing, that is Paul saw that He loves his people, providing the optimal level of godly love. Godly love is something special from us.
That will be my foundation - Godly Love. (:
I will work from there, going towards my life in reaching His people. (:

“Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name. For the LORD is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations.”- Psalm 100:4-5

After all,
Thank God for this great revelation today. (:
and Everyday. (:

Well, thank God for today. Really.

First time in my working place, I got actually split off the cup from me. Well the customers didn't go it, but the seats do. Thank God, because it's my first time. Before that, I hit my customer with a wooden tray, lightly, and twice. How careless am I!

Wait, did I say "careless"?
Thank God for that, because without that, I cannot realised how rough is my work.
I thank God for today, I faced my fear in my work, and I bit on it. I remained cool, and continued to work, but what really pissed me off is actually the one who is working with me. But still, because of him, I thank God to allow me to have the chance to learn to be faster to wipe the menus and seasoning trays.

It's also today, I begin to be super dependent on Him. It's really super.
My worry started when I was at CityLink, that I might not do well in my work for today, cos it's like, my skills just got rusty. First thing came to my mind, with a familiar soft and gentle voice, was "Just pray and believe that God will be the one who is taking control it." After praying, immediately felt the effects. Thank God for allowing me to be so sensitive towards my emotions and able to commit to Him. (:

Thank God, I bit on my fear after spill off a cup of water. I thank God because, my face did not change quite a lot, and fortunately, it pushed me to my limit. Praise Him. Able to maintain the smile in my work and everything. PRaise Him!
Thank God for today, because I went to meet my sister in my school. Yes, no doubt, it's Ngee Ann Polytechnic. I was asking myself, how can I make a difference in my life today, and it's by meeting my sister. Felt nothing much, except the joy of meeting her in school, to be able to see her and her friends in school. It's kinda special, because it seems wonderful and I was rushing all the way up, dun care about my friends even though I saw them, didnt even bother to say "hi". I am not supposed to harden my heart when I saw that group of friends, but I just dun care and run all the way up (108 or 78 steps) of stairs.
Seeing that she is having a great lunch, it just pleases my heart. (:
“Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.”- Colossians 3:15
I just want to confess it, and repent. Though maybe one of them in that group of friends dun like me, well I still have my choice to be nice to others. I thank God to allow me to see this, otherwise, I may never ever realise and fall into the trap of the Devil. All I want, is just a soft heart, to be sensitive to Him. (:

5 For I consider that I am not at all inferior to the most eminent apostles. 6 Even though I am untrained in speech, yet I am not in knowledge. But we have been thoroughly manifested[b] among you in all things.
7 Did I commit sin in humbling myself that you might be exalted, because I preached the gospel of God to you free of charge? 8 I robbed other churches, taking wages from them to minister to you. 9 And when I was present with you, and in need, I was a burden to no one, for what I lacked the brethren who came from Macedonia supplied. And in everything I kept myself from being burdensome to you, and so I will keep myself. 10 As the truth of Christ is in me, no one shall stop me from this boasting in the regions of Achaia. 11 Why? Because I do not love you? God knows!
12 But what I do, I will also continue to do, that I may cut off the opportunity from those who desire an opportunity to be regarded just as we are in the things of which they boast. 13 For such are false apostles, deceitful workers, transforming themselves into apostles of Christ. 14 And no wonder! For Satan himself transforms himself into an angel of light. 15 Therefore it is no great thing if his ministers also transform themselves into ministers of righteousness, whose end will be according to their works.
2 Corinthians 11: 5 to 15. (NKJV)

Will my end be according to what I am doing?
MAybe, I dunno. I just hope and pray what I am doing is not what a false prophet is doing.
But I believe these few days, God has been trying to help me to work out things in my life. (:
-Being disciplined in workplace to be able to stand alone.
-Taking the initiative to ask people around about what is happening
-Even though I am late for class like an hour, I will still make it for my class.
-To help others and to show care and concern that is needed and required.

And lots, it's all by God's grace. EVen at where I am now. I may be facing rejections and solitary, but God is good and He is there at all times. (:
Praise God.
The next thing I need to do, is to shine His Light from me! :)
Being different, and making a significant difference, not just a difference. :D That will give the others who is having idolatry, less chance to say that they are great, and another chance to praise the Lord and giving Him the glory. :)

Wee! Tomoro no school, can work lo, because past two days I have been studying, hees. :)
Got to jia you lo, cos my common tests are next week. (:
And do give thanks everyday about everything to Him. Not just today.
Today, is Thanksgiving Day. But I believe, everyday, it is one by itself.
Let today's and coming days' thanksgiving, not to be lesser than the day previous.
And I give thanks to God that He healed my stomach, because have been experiencing pain that past few weeks.
Thank God for everything! And God is Emmanuel! :)

Thank You Lord for all things in my life. Even though sometimes I felt my body is failing, Your grace, raise me up. Umpteen times I had failed You, but nevertheless, You have always provide someone to help me. Thank You Father.

Who is the one that He send?
A friend, who I just in need. I'm actually practising infant and paedetrics nursing, and I got a friend in hospital who is practising infant nursing. Wee!
Well, thank God, because until I went out with my male friend, then I got to realise that God has actually placed her beside me, to guide me in my studies. Soon, I will need her help again.
I do wonder how come God place her beside me, and I didnt realise until both of us are sharing people who are incredible, helped in our lives and making a difference. Of course, my friend shared a lot about his. :)

Sharing part of my life was quite nothing, because it's quite... plain, as I compared it with my friend. He worked in Fullerton restaurant as a Main Chef assistant, been a gangster, and lots of others. He is supposed to be a marketing manager for Coffee Club, while at the same time, he was a assistant manager in trainee. But he quitted and went for photo shoot for his portfolio, because he knew the Director of the model advertising company, and has the possibility to become a model. AHHH~ He got lots of choice, but not settling down. Certainly that is the act of Christ's Grace.
On the other hand, I was also having God's Grace, otherwise I wont even met him and other friends, speaking lots of their experiences into my life.
Of course, there are many pretties around me, and the more I must guard my life and my heart. Be good and nice to them, on the other hand, draw the boundaries.
“[Thanksgiving] I always thank God for you because of his grace given you in Christ Jesus. For in him you have been enriched in every way—in all your speaking and in all your knowledge—”- 1 Corinthians 1:4-5
Thank God. (:

1I hope you will put up with a little of my foolishness; but you are already doing that. 2I am jealous for you with a godly jealousy. I promised you to one husband, to Christ, so that I might present you as a pure virgin to him. 3But I am afraid that just as Eve was deceived by the serpent's cunning, your minds may somehow be led astray from your sincere and pure devotion to Christ. 4For if someone comes to you and preaches a Jesus other than the Jesus we preached, or if you receive a different spirit from the one you received, or a different gospel from the one you accepted, you put up with it easily enough. 5But I do not think I am in the least inferior to those "super-apostles." 6I may not be a trained speaker, but I do have knowledge. We have made this perfectly clear to you in every way. 2 Corinthians 11: 1 to 6

When I was typing out this devotion, thinking of the gal that God sent to help me in my studies.
God sent. Deceiving, isn't it?
Do have a clear heart about what God wants to tell you. Always checks.
Why is she in NUH earlier than me?
Why is she only until now, then I am able to talk to her and share with her?
Why is she only until now, realise I am in infant nursing?

There can be a lot of reasons, but do have a clear heart.
Where is she working? Infant ward.
EVen though cell has no one in nursing, still thank God, because He knows I need help. Hehe.

Allow my thoughts be as pure as a virgin. Though sounded quite weird, still thank God for it. (:
Dun let the "super-apostle" in you confused your mind, but know what you are seeing. (:

Heal my heart and make it clean.
Open up my eyes to the things unseen.
Show me how to love You have loved me.
Break my heart what breaks Yours.
EVerything I am for Your Kingdom,
As I walked from Earth to eternity.

Praise Him,Praise Him, Praise Him in everything. (:

Today, was kinda rebirth for me. I went out today, lie a prince, or maybe a super white guy. The shirt I am wearing, is white. My bag that I am carrying, it's white. The water bottle that I am carrying is also white. MY specs, is also white. :)
The white shirt I am wearing, drawing looks like an armour.

Well, there's a breakthrough within my thoughts. I realised what I need to do and need to continue to practise, until fruits are bearing out of me. Well, it's by God's grace certainly, otherwise I dun even have the chance to do it.

A few days ago, I was quite tempted to work today, but I made a deliberate effort to give it a miss, and go for open cell today. Thank God, because He affirmed me today again. (:

5 As King David approached Bahurim, a man from the same clan as Saul's family came out from there. His name was Shimei son of Gera, and he cursed as he came out. 6 He pelted David and all the king's officials with stones, though all the troops and the special guard were on David's right and left. 7 As he cursed, Shimei said, "Get out, get out, you man of blood, you scoundrel! 8 The LORD has repaid you for all the blood you shed in the household of Saul, in whose place you have reigned. The LORD has handed the kingdom over to your son Absalom. You have come to ruin because you are a man of blood!"
9 Then Abishai son of Zeruiah said to the king, "Why should this dead dog curse my lord the king? Let me go over and cut off his head."
10 But the king said, "What do you and I have in common, you sons of Zeruiah? If he is cursing because the LORD said to him, 'Curse David,' who can ask, 'Why do you do this?' "

11 David then said to Abishai and all his officials, "My son, who is of my own flesh, is trying to take my life. How much more, then, this Benjamite! Leave him alone; let him curse, for the LORD has told him to. 12 It may be that the LORD will see my distress and repay me with good for the cursing I am receiving today."

13 So David and his men continued along the road while Shimei was going along the hillside opposite him, cursing as he went and throwing stones at him and showering him with dirt. 14 The king and all the people with him arrived at their destination exhausted. And there he refreshed himself.
2 Samuel 16: 5 to 13

1O LORD, how many are my foes!
How many rise up against me!
2 Many are saying of me,
"God will not deliver him." -Selah

3 But you are a shield around me, O LORD;
you bestow glory on me and lift [b] up my head.

4 To the LORD I cry aloud,
and he answers me from his holy hill. -Selah

5 I lie down and sleep;
I wake again, because the LORD sustains me.

6 I will not fear the tens of thousands
drawn up against me on every side.

7 Arise, O LORD!
Deliver me, O my God!
Strike all my enemies on the jaw;
break the teeth of the wicked.

8 From the LORD comes deliverance.
May your blessing be on your people. -Selah
Psalms 3

Curses have been threw upon David, who was still a king at that time, even though Absalom, son of David, was after David. Son was chasing for the father's blood. Shimei was doing that. But still, David still trust Lord, even in throwing the curses by Shimei, he sees it as it's something from God.
David is faithful, and so God is. Thank God for David, because it's through David, we are enjoying the privilege by our forefather, David.
David, did thought about what God has done.
In David's thoughts, he is still a human and negative thoughts did came to his mind. But look at every Selah moment.
Everytime, he seems to be disappointed, but it's God in his life that sparked him off.
Well at the end of the day, his son died. This crisis, which David's son wanting to kill him, had actually sieved out all the officers, which followed David, and through this event, it has chosen the appropriate officers for David, who followed David throughout. (:

He will always give us an answer, it's also through the crisises in our lives, not grumbling to God but believing Him, show His Faithfulness to us.
Though it's kinda back to basic, doesnt it warm our hearts? (:
Thank God and Praise Him. More to come for us to trust Him, I believe. (:

I come, before you Lord
Before my king
Lift my hands toward you Lord
I worship you
(I worship you)

Your love is all
My heart longs for
I thank you, I thank you
Your grace, your peace
Your faithfulness
I thank you, I thank you

I worship you, I worship you
My Jesus, my Jesus ~Thank you, Paradise Community Church.

Changes in my life, keeps on going. buidling relationships with humans, and they all become my friends. Well, thank God for everything.
Thank God for my cousin, and it's like what Dad has told me, God will provide me with all the outing clothes, because God uses my cousin to bless me with a new nice polo shirt, and indeed, a lot of people doted me. They do know my other inner character, that is a super serious face when working, but they are so good to me. (:
What really interest me the most is working on others' salvations, especially those who doted me.

Well, I have to confess that it's quite hard to resist a pre believer gal who is your type. What is my type?
Slightly wild, an eager to be better, always on the move. I can list out all. But the thing that turns me off is, are they believers?
Too bad, or pray for their salvations. (:
Well indeed there's a lot of choices, but ladies are especially beautiful when they are seriously working.
All and all, there can be a lot of things that makes this world keeps on going, our lives keeps on wasting, yet there's one thing that will always keep myself in mind that we are wasting away and the world keeps turning, that is God.
Time may seems to be endless and slow. God will make a difference. I just wanna thank God that He always keep me awake, about what I am doing in my present life, where temptations is ongoing. (:
Well another thing to thank God, that is, I got several areas around my abdomens have an onset of pain. But thank God, by His Grace, several areas' pains have went off, and some is not that painful. Going to see a doctor soon, but will believe that He works. (:
Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night.”- Psalm 1:1-2

12We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise. 13We, however, will not boast beyond proper limits, but will confine our boasting to the field God has assigned to us, a field that reaches even to you. 14We are not going too far in our boasting, as would be the case if we had not come to you, for we did get as far as you with the gospel of Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:12 to 14.
I always have this habit, that is, how many hours did you actually slept?
Well, I sleep for 6 to 7 hours by God's Grace. (:

I need to repent because often I asked most of the people around, they can sleep like 8 to 10 hours, as they can afford to, and heard them complaining tired. So I will try to show off. But I forget it's by God's Grace.
The whole chapter 10 is about the same:
By the meekness and gentleness of Christ, I appeal to you—I, Paul, who am "timid" when face to face with you, but "bold" when away!~ 10: 1
7You are looking only on the surface of things. If anyone is confident that he belongs to Christ, he should consider again that we belong to Christ just as much as he. ~10: 7.
The spirit that I must change and repent is Pride, my Pride.
On the other hand, I gave thanks to God, also, fortunately do have God's pride in your life. That is something and stories to keep us hanging on, as each story inspire to either believer or pre believer differently.

15Neither do we go beyond our limits by boasting of work done by others.Our hope is that, as your faith continues to grow, our area of activity among you will greatly expand, 16so that we can preach the gospel in the regions beyond you. For we do not want to boast about work already done in another man's territory. 17But, "Let him who boasts boast in the Lord."[c] 18For it is not the one who commends himself who is approved, but the one whom the Lord commends.
2 Corinthians 10 15 to 18.
Never we should boast the efforts of God into ours. Let us alight our spirits with Paul. At the end of the day, what really fills the depth of our hearts are actually praise as worthy of confidence from Christ.

Let a new spirit to be birth off from me.