I wont fight, I will cry.


I guess that is pretty much for a human.
for them, to love and to believe.
I want to be that kind of people, very weak in all manners.
broken, and contrite.


why is it so?
I realised, God love me, because i am weak.
the strong will, and the child in me.
putting away my childish side. yeah.
and my intelligence, insight, and specificity.

guess, that's much in my life.
others, may view me as a lower being, and maybe rejected me.
i will cry and i will change.

hey, welcome to life. (:
thank God and thank you Lord. (:

living in anticipation, praise God.


every fear that I faced, I thank God for all the grace, chances and love that He has put into my life. I didnt really suffer much, I guess.
but I hope I can let others see the faith taht I am working towards too,
for that's God's love for all.

Good friday isnt just a good friday.
It is for me to reflect what really pin my dear heavenly Daddy onto the Cross.
it speaks of great love and grace from God.
my attitude, my characters, simply everything in my life.

i do have her in my heart,
but i surrender my heart, my mind to Christ, for I know I adore, love Him, and He loves me.
let me not to forget the rest around me,
and her, who i really loved, and love - but just wanna commit to You, Father.
Lead me back to you. (:

Praise God for all the things in my life. yeah (:

thank God for today.

went to clarice's house today.
thank God her parents, and her grand-daddy were fine.
so glad to hear that.
both of her parents are very nice.

oh, today managed to pray at the coffin - it was indeed a blessing.
I always have this fear, even though sometimes, the one lying in the coffin
I was praying hard that grandmother will arise from the dead.
and now, i just to pray for the well being of the family.

may the peace and God's love, fall into the home and family. (:

lol, I guess i am really blessed today.
went to help out pastor to give out flyers for coming easter sunday.
then they tell me, there is a prayer meet later.
thank God, for that. otherwise I have wasted it.
nonetheless thank God for today, and everything.

prayer meet, is perfectly wonderful with God. (:
Praise the Lord! :)

thank God for today!

it was a great day to start with quarreling with my mum. :D
cos I woke up late and well, I did know what I am doing, and it's wrong for me to do it.
and now, I have to change. first thing to change, is to sleep early, which i have to after i finished my blogging! tee hees!


met Ian to shop for risers maintainence stuffs.
thank God for providing some jobs with my mum, so i can earn some pocket money.
thank God for giving us such good places to get things.
thank God for the journey mercy.
thank God for the people around me are safe.
thank God for ideas that are flowing through our heads.
and i so so get a nice design for my risers, especially the springs. Roar!

nowadays as i am trying to push things to get going, i also have to keep update myself about the newspapers, magazines and be observant about the things around us.
to learn from people around me.
It is really glory to God, because without surrendering my mind and my heart to Him, it is just so me. so yup. (:
definitely the search for materials has not ended.
in fact it has just started.
equipments, paint sprays and tools for risers, very important to get a consistent supplier and everything.

a random thought came into my mind:
if I can install a GN-drive (those who watches Gundam OO season 2 know this) onto it, then running with it, will be so cool! :D
i was having this thinking too, if something like the risers can be an energy provider, and we use ourselves as trained and skill to be another energy provider, that will definitely increase the output of the risers.

it will be so powerful. :D
as i was passing through bras basah complex, there are so many memories came back. but of course, i must do what i need to. thank God for Ian, i managed to try how does MAc's milk shake tastes like. though sitting alone along the rails with milkshake, this strawberry flavoured milk shake taste extra-ordinary sweet with love and concern. I guess that is the power of strawberry. :D

dinner time! only 5 of us. haiz.. next time dont come le.
I didnt know i will be getting my green belt. finally green belt le.
thank God for the grading in Ninjado - cos i am not supposed to do that well.
haiz, have to stretch more lo, my flexibility has so much problems. haiz.

oh well, thank God, because as much as it hurts very much, it just pushes me on. (:
no pain, no gain. (:
And God really blesses me. (:

Praise the Lord! :)

does friends really just like, hi and bye?
or was it just a bit more?

I was happy with this friend of mine.
well, i like him a lot, used to. but now i know it's just a crush, so i dun think i will be bothering him so much.
because i scare... whatever whatever whatever! :D

baka - i guess, there is very much in what nowadays thinking now, those who think quite a lot and have some intelligence.
when sensible guys say friends, most of them means friends.
personally, i mean what i say. :D
I think a lot of gals have always been tricked about this deception:
i liked this guy then now not le, so i will just leave that guy.
i mean as a guy that is very sad: it's like shit, and hey sometimes guys dun even know gals want to get close to them, because they like them, and everything will start from friendship.
but things doesnt seems to that way, they just get away from the guys.
why cannot friendship?


friendship is fun, enjoyable, for there each other. well, if friendship you found it's redundant. i guess, some friends who wanted to your true friends, wasted their effort.
true friends care for each others.
and do what true friends really tell each other, commited to each other?
does true friends cross really have to cross the boundaries between two different genders?

i guess, that is my definition. it is for your reference. Roar!
just be truthful to your friends.
or... at first.. can you even be truthful to yourself?

I thank God, i have Jesus as my true friend and the people around me, who care for me.
maybe just a sms about how i am - i guess that is more that sufficient.
Praise God. (:

been thinking through a lot and a lot, but realised only through God, everything is possible.
I thank God, beacuse yes I am someone who is very much kept to myself,
people who are very close to me are my victims who i can complain.
I guess that is very much about human, but at least, everytime i whine I tried something else.
so i wont stay still,

that is Jimmy, ever changing - but one thing i never failed, is to keep to myself.
unless you ask me: becaue people who really care for me, will ask me and i will share deeper.. (:
thank God for them. (:

after watching the final episode of Gundam OO seasons 2, yeah it is very interesting.
I love Macross Frontier and Gundam OO;
Marcross Frontier talks about the relationship between people, that man does not work alone, rather, there are always friends, and when people tries to strike us down, we know that our friends will help us - that is what precisely what God do. (:
Gundam OO speaks very much about helping each other, understand each other, through things in life, daily behaviours, to come to build a better world - we tend to do so much into others lives, and i realised, i will just want to stop a while in life, to look, to see, to concern and to care for people who is around me.


it takes a whole world to live in a planet, we are not alone. (:
may God leads me to the impossible. (:
I shall hold onto You, the Centre of my Life. (:
thank you for the tears You have cried - and You know how I feel.
"Jesus wept" - Father, You cry not because of others feeling down, rather You just want to cry with us, and Father, You understand it all.
(:

just time to relax, and to work with God hand in hand, to see the impossible.
dreams! take flight! :D